Wednesday, October 31, 2007

I AM - Your Beauty

1. Have you ever found yourself 'in faith' yet bewildered or demoralized?
I guess I'm not real sure how to answer this...

2. Do you consider yourself content? Would you describe it as Decidedly Content or Dreamily Content?
No, I'm not content...I know I should be, but I'm not.  I want more for my life.

3. If you are not content, are there circumstances that keep you from this feeling?
Lack of faith in God.  Always wanting more (not necessarily Spiritual stuff either).

4. Have you ever found yourself in a place where you looked back on a period of your Christian walk and believed a great opportunity passed you by?
Yes, I do, I see how "on fire" I used to be for God and have spent many, many times begging to be that "on fire" again.  Seeing how much faith I had and the knowledge of God, wishing now for more.

5. Do you ever believe your faith was stronger in an earlier time in your Christianity and find yourself floundering now?
Yes, I am (see previous answer).  Time and time again, I ask myself why am I not spending the time I used to in the Bible?  Why isn't there that desire to learn more and more?  Why do I struggle with not focusing on God at times I need to?  All these things used to come easy.  But lately (and I can almost pin point the time frame when this happened) I struggle with every step I take!

6. Can you recognize that this season may be one of great preparation instead of a period of "I Was"?
Yes, I can.  I see things on the horizon coming my way.  I am taking baby steps (although I wish they were leaps and bounds) toward my goal.  I still struggle, but at least I know I'm heading in the right direction.  Through prayer, and time in the Word, I know I'll get there.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

I'm an Aunt Again!

I was so blessed yesterday to get a call at 6:30 am asking me if I'm up!  It was Stacy (my brother in law)...Denielle was in labor!  Denielle and I have been growing closer and closer over the past couple of years and I had been asked to come to the hospital when she went into labor!

I told Stacy, I was up, and to let me make a few calls and I'd let him know when I was on my way!

My first call was to Kevin to let him know.  Being the wonderful husband he is, he offered to come home and work from home so I didn't have to deal with the boys all day!  My 2nd call was to my mom...she wasn't at work yet and I didn't get an answer on her cell phone, so I called the house and talked to my dad (he was home sick...well, not sick, but the gout in his feet were acting up).

I took off and headed up to the hospital and got there at 8:30 am.  I thought I had made pretty good timing since I was going through Dayton, OH during rush hour!!

"Kg2" was born at 1:59 pm.  She weighed 7 pounds and was 20 1/2 inches long!  Her big sister "Kg1" was in awe.  It was hard to contain her out in the hallway while her mommy delivered!  At one point I literally had to grab her before she went running into the room (I didn't know what mommy was doing at that moment and didn't want this 7 year old girl getting an eye-full).

She's such a beautiful baby and I can't tell you how great it was to be there to support Denielle through her L & D!

Thankful Thursday

Today is Thursday...that means it's Thankful Thursday!

  • I'm Thankful for a wonderful Husband, Kevin.  I feel like I say this every Thursday, but he's just so great!  He works so hard for our family and never complains when I don't get something done (laundry, or cleaning, or whatever) even when I'm home every day!  He even pitches in to help out when he sees I'm stressed out...even after a stressful day he's at at work!!
  • I'm Thankful for "M".  He is working so hard at school this year, and although I will probably put him back in school next year, he isn't complaining...he's actually excited about going back and being with his friends (or making new friends).
  • I'm Thankful for "N".  He's working so hard in school.  Trying very hard to learn to read.  I hear him sounding out words even when it's not his homework!
  • I'm Thankful for "A".  He loves playing Football and soccer.  Loves to run and jump!  When he was born, he struggled a bit with breathing, but is a Healthy little boy!!
  • I'm Thankful for "D".  He's my hyper little boy who loves dancing and running around! When he was born, he had some issues with eating, it took him longer to figure it out and also holding his body temperature.  But he's healthy!
  • I'm Thankful for my nieces and nephews!  I have 2 nieces (one born yesterday!) and 1 nephew on Kevin's side and 4 nieces and 2 nephews on my side of the family.
  • I'm Thankful for the new friends I'm meeting and for the older friends I have.  Everyone one of them have something I need.  God designed us to be friends for a reason!
  • I'm Thankful for my new blogging friends and message board friends.  What a great network of support I have out there!

To read more Thankful Thursday posts, head over to Sting My Heart's Blog!

Monday, October 15, 2007

Can I talk VBS?

I cannot begin to describe how excited I am about the VBS 2008 that I'll be helping in running!
We have already decided on our's Power Lab by Group!  Discover Jesus' Miraculous Power.  WOW!  Just being on that site and reading others' ideas on decorating and it just ignites something down inside me!!

I have already began to pray for the staff and those children who will be attending.  Those who will be volunteering to work on the VBS team, I want them to come because they see the need and know God has called them to help out; The children, I'm wanting this to be something that they are really excited about too (my boys are excited about it already because they've seen the promo video online)!

I'm nervous because I've never run a VBS before, but I will be relying on the Children's Ministry Director who ran it last year.  Which is great because she is great at it!

However, I was just told a couple weeks ago that she is pregnant and due a week before our VBS!  That makes me nervous...but through prayer and God's help, things will be fine...I know it in my heart!

Anyway, thanks for allowing me to share about VBS again!

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

I AM - Your Beauty

1. I am going to present to you a little acrostic to begin our discussion today. What is your latest NLIP? (Not Like I Planned?)
Well, I NEVER planed on being involved in a Children's Ministry after the problems that I faced when I went to another church (long story).  So I guess I'm in the midst of the "Not Like I Planned" position.  A little different than what you are asking, but you get the idea.

2. How did you react to your NLIP? Are you still upset about it? Happy about it? Baffled by it? Explain.
Very nervous and yes baffled.  I can't say I was upset, but I did drag my feet so hard I left ruts all over the place!

3. Have you ever attempted to step into an area of ministry and found your desire rejected? Did this cause you to question God and yourself? Perhaps distrust what you perceived to be your calling?
Sort of...I was interested in an area, but never really stepped into it...I have since realized that it wasn't a calling from God, but a desire of mine that I had...something I had been involved in when I was at a different church that I missed (our current church doesn't do it).

4. Do you harbor any bitterness towards any individual or situation which you believe waylaid your best laid plans?
No, you can't!  That's like not forgiving in my head!  If I don't forgive, then God won't forgive me.  If I hold bitterness or hold a grudge about something, I'm not walking in the forgiveness that God has called us to walk in.

5. Have you had a life experience or trial that left you with a shaken faith because it ended in an NLIP? Please share if you feel free.
Oh yes, I felt like a church trapped me and my husband into the Children's ministry at a church.  At that time, I didn't feel the calling, and I know my husband was not called to teach 4 & 5 year olds.  I didn't CHOOSE to be in that ministry, I was TOLD I had to if I wanted my children to be in those classes.  I would go to class with a resentful attitude...not something you want to do with 4 & 5 year olds.  When we moved here and joined this church, I held that hurt in front of me as an excuse to not be involved in the Children's ministry.  When approached about the Children's ministry at our church, I was open and honest with the Children's Ministry Director.  I told her about what happened and how I felt.  She assured me that she would NEVER pressure anyone into something they didn't feel God calling them to.

5. Based on Moses' response of faith to his own rejection, how will you re-evaluate your own experiences or look at future ones differently if a NLIP presents itself?
Well, with my openness and through prayer, I have felt God calling me into the Children's Ministry at our church.  In stepping up, I have felt such a Peace and Excitement as I walk into the children's room!  I don't teach 4 & 5 year olds, I teach 1st & 2nd grades.  I never thought I would ever get to the point of being involved in a Children's Ministry again from my past experiences.  I know my husband still has that sour taste in his mouth and I believe that is why he hasn't gotten involved anywhere in the church (which saddens me...he is so gifted in so many areas...there are so many places the church could use him at!).

I had rejected the calling God had on my life to be involved with the Children's Ministry...I have since fully (well, maybe not fully...that's yet to be determined through prayer) embraced it!  Teaching 1st & 2nd graders and Directing VBS for 2008 is so exciting to me!  I'm so greatfull that God never gave up on me!!

Ok, now that I'm done typing my answers to all those questions, I'm starting to second guess myself.  I'm NOT going to reevaluate my writing though...I just don't feel I fully answered those questions in the way I'm supposed to.  BUT I did it in the way that was beneficial to ME...that's what this is about right??

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

I AM - Your Beauty

1. It was stated in the Lesson that God has made you "once, twice, three times a lady." Where are you in this progression? Obviously we have all been physically born, but are you 'twice a lady'? Have you been born again spiritually? This may be a private matter you'd like to discuss confidentially. If so, email me. If you have already received this gift, write a brief prayer of thanksgiving or testimony.
I have been a Christian since 1995!  Praise the Lord!  I'm thankful for God's loving kindness and mercy that has brought me through this far!  I grew up going to church, but it wasn't until I got married and my husband and I went to my sister's church.  At the alter call, we both went up.  We both became Christians on the same day!  How neat that God put it on both of our hearts at the same time!  God is Awesome!!!

2. Are you three times a lady? Has God given you a stirring deep within your Spirit to be a 'deliverer'? Do you have a desire or are you already meeting a need in the life of the church, a particular ministry (such as jail ministry, food ministry, etc.) or perhaps individuals who share common issues?
I have shared this before...I recently have felt the nudge from God to move forward and get involved in our church.  I co-teach the 1st and 2nd graders in Sunday School (and I absolutely love it...I just need to work on timing...I'm always running out of time do do everything) and I have also stepped up to be the 2008 VBS Elementary Director.  I will be working with the Children's Ministry leader as well as the Preschool Director (as long as someone steps up to do that).  And singing...Oh do I enjoy singing!  I'm on the Praise and Worship team...I fall in love with God all over again during Praise and Worship!!

3. Do you ever get tired of waiting for that opportunity to do something
worthwhile for God? Do you ever feel God is using someone else instead of you?
I have to say I used to feel that way.  Until I started praying that God would show me where I should be in our church.  Now it seems as though a new door has opened's wonderful!  I used to sit back and wonder why God called them to do that and not me...that usually wasn't the was more of me not listening to God calling ME to do something!

4. What do you consider 'worthwhile ministry'? Are you like me and sometimes find yourself mistakenly thinking it has to be Big to be Important?
Every little thing you do in the church to help out is a worthwhile ministry!  The person who does the grounds one ever sees them, but if they weren't there, our grass would be long and weeds would have taken over the flowerbeds!  The person who mops the floor...who cleans up a spill...the person who opens the door for someone...the person who smiles at another person...all those are worthwhile ministries.  Things that aren't seen, but are being done to keep the church alive an running.  It's those small things that sometimes mean more than the big stuff.  Someone having a bad day sees someone else smile at them, it cheers them up!

5. Have you ever taken a spiritual gifts test? If yes, what are yours? If no, here's a good one from Ephesians 4 Ministry. Will you take it and come back with a response? Knowing some of you like I already do, I can almost pick out what your gift is before you say it. I can't wait to see if I'm right!
I had taken one of these years ago...Showing Mercy is my big one.  Another big one of mine is Administration.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Thankful Thursday

I haven't blogged much the past few weeks.  I do plan on catching up some with at least 2 more posts, but first I want to do Thankful Thursday.  I've missed Thankful Thursday for the past couple of weeks, and I don't want to miss it this week!

What am I Thankful for this week??

  • I'm thankful that God's grace and mercies are new every day...some days, I feel I've used up my fair share!
  • I'm thankful that my 1st day teaching Sunday School is over, there's always that fear and nervousness that comes with the first day.
  • I'm thankful for my 4 boys' ("M", "N", "D", and "A")they are such a blessing to me!
  • I'm thankful that Kevin works so hard so that I can stay home with my boys!
  • I'm thankful for the prayer meeting we had at church...I could feel the presence of God there while we were was AWESOME!
  • I'm thankful that our church is growing!

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I AM - Your Beauty

What is your initial response when anyone suggests you are beautiful?
I usually say thanks.  When I'm down, I don't believe them.  When I'm in a good mood, after saying thanks, I think about it a little then just completely forget that they said that to me.

Do you find you engage in a lot of negative 'self-talk'? How much of your thought life does this form of thinking consume?
I do a little negative "self-talk", but not nearly as much as I used to do.  Which I'm glad I'm headed in the right direction.  I would say not much of my thoughts are consumed with this.  As a teenager, things were quite different, but as I've grown (not only by age, but in God), I don't seem to dwell on negative thoughts of myself.  I actually find myself frustrated and disgusted when others talk negatively about themselves, saying they are fat or ugly.  That is something I try to avoid.  If someone starts talking negatively about themselves, I will disagree with them, then change the subject.

What is the most radical transformation you've witnessed in an individual after they were born again? It's okay to tell about your own!
My father changed so much from the point he became born again and now.  He became so much more compassionate.  You can see the love on his is beautiful!

The imagery of being a City Girl has absolutely changed the way I perceive my worth before God. Does it yours? Will you receive this truth and let it boost your righteous confidence?
I've always been a "small town" girl.  Hearing about being a City Girl changes my perspective on everything!  I AM a City Girl...a heavenly city!  I'm an heir of a King...a Princess!  This knowledge will change the way I look at things.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Thankful Thursday

8 Oh, give thanks to the LORD!
Call upon His name;
Make known His deeds among the peoples!
1 Chronicles 16:8 (New King James Version)

Today is Thankful Thursday again.  There is so much in life to be thankful for.  God has done some amazing things in my life.

  1. This is our first week of school.  "M" (my oldest) is homeschooled (well, he's in a virtual academy), and "N" (my middle child...well, middle to me, I have 4 boys...but only 3 pregnancies, so he's my middle, but my 2nd child) went to first grade this year.  Both have been doing very well.  I haven't had any complaints regarding school!  I am Thankful that this week has went so well...and pray it continues to go well!
  2. I started a new Bible Study this week.  "I you don't have to be".  It is a wonderful study and I'm so Thankful that The Preacher's Wife has started Round 2 of this study!
  3. I have 4 boys...I was told at a very young age (16) that I may never have any children.  I'm so Thankful to God that he has allowed me to have children...and not just 1, but 4!  "M" just celebrated his 10th birthday, "N" will be turning 7 in September, "D" & "A" are 2 1/2.
  4. The Lord  has definitely blessed me with BOYS!!  Although I always thought I would love to have a little girl, I'm finding it harder and harder to imagine me dealing with a girl!  Praise the Lord for taking that longing for a girl away and just blessing me with a lot of boys!
  5. My 15 year H.S. Reunion is the end of Sept.  My wonderful husband decided that instead of staying in the hotel with all my classmates, we would go to a Bed & Breakfast nearby...the same Bed & Breakfast we went to when I was pregnant with my fist!  I am so excited!  We could have just came home since we aren't going too far for our reunion!
  6. This weekend we are going to Kings Island with my parents.  Last year we had a season pass to go, but didn't get one this year.  The company my mom works for is having their annual picnic there, so we are all going together!  Why am I thankful for that??  Well, my dad is going.  He has been so sick and had sore feet for a long time.  For him to actually agree to go is a HUGE blessing!  Oh and they are staying at our house for the weekend since we are close to Kings Island!
  7. I'm thankful for little things like Benedryl and Claritan...without those, I would be suffering so much with my allergies at this time of year.
  8. Because of those little things mentioned above, I'm ever so thankful for my coffee in the morning to help me wake up!
  9. This blog community that I have recently found is wonderful!  I can't believe how many others are out there just like me, trying to live their lives the way God has intended them to.  I'm so thankful for each and every one of them!
  10. And may sound weird, but whenever an email comes in, I get so excited!  I absolutely love it!  That and regular mail.  Any type of mail really (as long as it's not a bill) I'm so excited!  You never know what's inside!

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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I AM - Your Beauty

1. Are there any circumstances or relationships in your life where you can see God has intentionally placed you? What do you perceive may be at stake if you do or do not speak out for Him?
Yes, I have a few friends who constantly lean on me in their times of trouble.  I have also been placed here for my family as well.  To support and to stand up in my faith (not that I have been doing so well at times, but I know I'm supposed to).

2. Can you honestly describe yourself as a woman with a 'yes' in her spirit? If not, what keeps you from this?
No, because of fear.  Fear of the unknown, Fear of failure...which all boils down to Fear.  I need to step out in faith and not to fear.  God has not given me a spirit of Fear, but of power, might and of a sound mind!

3. Do you recognize any circumstances in your life which could be described as an 'unrecurring event'? Have you ever said 'no' to one and watched God use someone else instead?
I do, there have been times that I felt a crushing in my spirit when seen something done that I knew in my heart that I was supposed to do, but for some reason (probably fear) I didn't step up to do.

4. Are you in an emotionally and spiritually healthy place? If yes, how are you using this freedom to minister to others? If no, what do you feel is holding you in your Egypt?
Yes, some days.  I am taking steps to keep me Spiritually healthy.  Some days I fail, but I dust myself off and try again!  I have begun to commit to prayer.  Praying for those in need and those whom God lays on my heart.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Thankful Thursday

  • I'm Thankful for getting all the school supplies already!
  • I'm Thankful that school starts on Monday for both "M" & "N"!
  • I'm Thankful that I will be back into a routine starting Monday!
  • I'm Thankful my allergies haven't been bad this year!
  • I'm Thankful that I found a good deal on a Fitness Gym membership!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Sunday School

I have been sitting here thinking about Sunday School...

As you know, I have volunteered to co-teach 1st and 2nd graders starting in September.  Our Curriculum has been ordered and I'm hoping it will be here soon so I can dive into it.  Our schedule is set in place...I'm on 2 weeks in a row, then off 2 weeks in a row.  But, knowing me, I'll probably study EVERY lesson in there.

Last Wednesday, I had a meeting with the Director of our Children's ministry and the other teacher that will be teaching with me.  The director showed us where all our supplies were at, asked us to check a few weeks in advance for any art supplies, in case we were low on supplies and she would order them.

We sat in our classroom and looked around.  The other teacher and I have been given the go ahead to do as we want with the room (posters on the walls, charts, extra incentives above and beyond the "rations" that are given for knowing your Bible verse and bringing your Bible, etc.).   I think she and I (I'll have to double check with her) are going to do a chart to help those children with their memory verses.  We both have boys in that class, so we have our own ideas of what we would like to see as parents of children in the class.

Rations...these are little slips of paper that are given to the elementary students.  Children get 5 rations for knowing their memory verse for the week, 1 for coming to Sunday School, and 1 for bringing their bible to class.  They can also earn more for knowing all the books of the bible (I think it's 40 for the OT and 30 for the NT).  Once a quarter, they open up a store so that the children can use their rations to purchase toys, candy, etc.

The other teacher and I discussed about giving the parents a list of all the memory verses that we will be going over for the fall curriculum at the beginning of September, but then also having that particular week's verse written out on their paper for them to take home with them and learn.  I do a lot of graphic stuff for a message board I'm a member of, so I have a bunch of graphics that I will probably work into our little slips for our memory verses.  What I'll do is probably get them all typed out week by week with graphics when we get our books and then we will have each verse ready for each week...we'd just have to copy them.

The other teacher has a tape of a song that goes over the books of the bible, so we are going to incorporate that into our lessons so that the children will learn the books of the bible.

I would love to do some special things for these children, but I don't know what.  I feel like there's something I NEED to do, but can't quite put my finger on what that is!

Do you have any suggestions and or ideas for us?  I'd love to hear how you do things in your Sunday Schools!

Thursday, August 16, 2007


This is the 3rd week of our Bible Study...

List 3 things you need from friends.

  1. Companionship
  2. Encouragement
  3. Listening Ear, someone to be there when I need a shoulder to cry on

Do you consider yourself a good listener?  Why?
I'd like to think so.  I do try hard to listen to what people are saying to me.  I know I need to work on interrupting people (it's a bad habit that I've acquired over the years) and I need to stop trying to "1 up" their story!

What are you missing most in your relationships (think about your friends, family, spouse, Christ)?
Closeness.  I have kept people at an arms length for so many years.  It's something I developed over all the moves to guard my heart from being hurt when we moved away.  Now that we are here and pretty settled at being in this general area, I'm starting to let my guard down.

Think of someone who could be your Spiritual mentor.  What would they be like?  What qualities or characteristics would they have?
Someone who is knowledgeable in God's word, gentle, loving, kind, supportive, and holds me accountable.  Someone who checks in on me from time to time.

How can you mentor someone else?
By being in prayer for that person daily.  Talking to them, checking up on them, making sure they are getting plugged in at church.  Spending time with them.


Week 2 of our Bible Study questions...

Describe a time when you were in deep communion with God...How were you feeling?  What were you thinking?  What was going on inside of you?
I feel an urgency inside my soul, urging me to pray ad to humble myself before God.  Even with the urgency, there's a Peace, knowing that He's there caring, talking and sharing with me.  I am weak and can not get up from where I am.  My thoughts are all consumed with God and His presence.  Nothing on earth could shake or distract me at that moment.  I am forever changed in that moment, never able to look back!  My heart leaps.  My body if cold, yet I'm not.

How would you describe God at that moment?
How does one begin to describe God in that moment?  I don't know how to describe Him...he's Powerful, Kind, Calming, Peaceful, Comforting, Direct, Friendly, Loving, Warm, full of Mercy and Grace...the list could go on.

What 1 think could you do to Praise God?
Stop complaining about things and start praying about them instead!

Have you surrendered yourself fully to God?
At one point in my life I know that I have...but at this moment, if I'm being total honest (and that's what I want), I'd say that I'm holding onto something...I need to let go...I need to figure out what it is and why I think I need to hold onto it.

How will what you learned impact your worship?
I will focus my attention inward and search my heart for what it is that I'm holding onto.  I want to fully surrender to God

Lessons Learned...
Describe a significant event that happened in your life.
So, I went out and did what every 16 year old does with her friends (well in my little town that is), we went cruising!  We used her car since mine wasn't in any shape to be driving around outside of our little town (according to my parents)...Too unreliable.  After a night of driving around, I got into my little Chevette and headed back home.  On my way home, I see car headlights coming straight toward my car.  I slow down and pull closer to the parked cars.  Still that car comes at me.  I then realize it was going to hit me...I brace my arms against the steering wheel and prepare for impact.

I close my eyes and when I open them, I'm not facing the direction I once was.  I look around and there's a car not too far from mine all dented in as well.  As I glance around my little car, I see some part of the engine laying down in the passenger seat.  The steering wheel has been snapped in half.  Out of habit, I pull down the mirror and see that a tooth had been moved in my reaction...push it back into place.

I reach for my won't seatbelt is completely stretched out and won't retract.  I can't get out...I'm trying and trying, but the door won't open.

A lady comes to my door..."Are you ok, do you want me to call your parents"

I manage to tell her yes, and sit there.  I just want to get out of my car.  Here comes the rescue...they come over to me, climb into my passenger seat and start checking me out.  He asks if I'm ok...I know this man, he was a Sunday School teacher I had once before.  I tell him yeah, but I think my foot might be broke..I can't move it.  I begin to tell him that my door won't open, I tried.  He says "Sit tight, we'll get you out of here."

Dad comes over to the car to see how I am...I tell him I'm scared, I want out.  He tries to help the rescue worker get me out, only to be told to STOP, Please don't move her, we'll take care of this.  The next thing I see is my dad talking to the cop (they are friends).

They start moving me, OUCH, my leg hurts...BAD!  Oh wait, it's not my foot that is broke, it's my leg!   With a lot of pain and work, they finally get me out of the car.  But not before cutting my door!

Now I'm cold, really cold.  I want so much to be warm, I'm scared...

They take me in the ambulance to the hospital...the guy that hit me is in the same ambulance...I don't like that.  I feel every little bump that the go over.

At the hospital, things are crazy...x-rays, needles, lights...where are my parents??  After a little while, they come in.  (This was told to me later, but apparently the guy that hit me had told the hospital staff that I was his daughter and we had been in a car accident and he wanted to know how I was...when my parents got there and told them they were my parents, there were some problems...they had to figure out who I belonged to).  I hear the doctor talking to my parents...I strain to see the x-ray, but I can't.  I hear him say, it's broke, she'll have to have surgery and a rod placed in her leg.  It has to be tomorrow.

They wheel me up to the 3rd floor to put traction into my leg.  My parents were told to stay down on the 1st floor and they'd come and get them when that was finished.

I'm in a room, it's all white, there are a bunch of nurses standing around me.  I know a couple of them from church.  They are going to put traction into my leg...I can't have pain medication yet...OUCH that hurts...I'm crying, I'm screaming...why can't they numb me?  The nurse starts pumping in the morphine, but it's not helping.  The nurse that I know leans in and tells me that this is almost over and that I can squeeze or bite her hand if I wanted...she looks really concerned.  She said she can't give me any more medication since I had hit my head in the crash.

Finally, it's over...No more pain...I'm tired...I want my parents.

I'll speed this story up a bit because so much of it is still fuzzy in my head.  I had a broken Femur in my right leg.  Apparently the break was clean, however, the bones were laying too close to that main artery in my leg and that's why they couldn't allow my dad to help them for fear that I would bleed to death.  Because of all the injuries I sustained (I won't go into all that, some of it is TMI, but you are getting the main of it) and all the x-rays that were taken, I was told that I may never be able to have children.  I was in the hospital for 1 week and out of school for 1 month.  I healed very quickly, the doctor was so surprised!  At the time of the accident (September), he didn't think I'd be able to play softball, but by the time February rolled around, I was well enough and strong enough to play softball!

Fast forward 5 years.  I am now married and we've already accepted the fact I may never have children, although we've never attempted to try and we did protect ourselves "just in case."  While in church practicing with the Praise & Worship team, we had a Hispanic Preacher come into our church and minister to us.  He was there that morning with an interrupter, but tonight, for whatever reason, the interrupter isn't around.  He begins praying for each member of our team.  I'm last, he looks at me (mind you I don't speak an ounce of Spanish), and asks if I want a baby (in his VERY broken english, I only understood the word baby).  I stand there shaking my head.  He begins praying over me and says it's not your fault and boy...those are the only thing I understand...along with the chuckles that come from him.  He keeps saying boy, boy, boy and chuckles.  I don't understand, but I know God is working in my life...I feel things happening in my uterus.  2 years later, I had my 1st boy...(3 others follow in time).

What did you learn from that event?  How were you impacted because of that lesson learned?
Even though I went through such a tragedy, my faith has grown so much over the years from the remnants of what happened to me.  I could have been so angry with the man that hit me, but I wasn't.  I could have died, but I didn't.  I could have blamed God for everything that happened, but I didn't, I clung to God!  I had a renewed faith and the seeds were beginning to grow at that time.  Then with the miracle of being able to have children, I don't doubt for one minute that I wasn't healed.  The doctors told my parents about me not having children as well, so it wasn't just something I thought I had heard.  After my twins were born in 2005, my mom said she was so proud of me and thought I wouldn't ever have any children, I looked at her and told her, I know, and reminded her of the Hispanic Preacher that prayed over me.

This event has helped me grow into the person I am today.  I am forever changed by the events that happened...not only physically, but Spiritually as well!


This is one of the first entries from the Bible Study I did at our church...

Describe the most Passionate person you know...describe their attributes.

D - she is passionate in her worship to the Lord.  There is a connection that you see when she worships.  She doesn't care what others think of how she looks or acts, it's just her and the Lord.  She is also passionate about the teenagers in her church.  She is a very gentle leader, but stands firm in her faith.  She knows the Word of God and knows how to apply it to her life.  She's sensitive to the Spirit of God, knowledgeable, loves singing and teaching.  This is someone I look up to and learn from.

She is my sister...the one who showed me that there was more to faith than just going to church on Sunday morning.  Because of her, I am a Christian today!

There were many people that I thought about describing for this study, but D was the one who came to mind first so I went with her!

What keeps you from living the Passionate Life that Lucy Swindoll talked about? issues...children.

Name 3 Things you'd like to do or change to be more passionate about your life?

  1. Start making time for myself to study and learn
  2. Get involved in the Children's ministry
  3. Become more organized...I believe that by me being organized, I won't scramble to do things that shouldn't take that long.

What did you learn about yourself?
I learned that I'm not as passionate as I once was.  This sounds bad, but since having children, my passion has diminished.  I have become unorganized and chaotic in my life.  I need to change to become more passionate.  I need to stop worrying about what others think of me, especially in worship.

How will that learning impact your daily living?
I have put things into motion already.  I am becoming involved in the Children's ministry.  Organization, well, that's a process that I need to begin...task by task...until I get things how I want them to be.

Personal Vision:
I would like to become more organized in my house.  Spend more time in the Word, become more knowledgeable.  Step up and begin working in the Children's ministry and getting more involved in church.

Start figuring out what to do with all this AVON stuff so I can become organized!!  Step by step, work on this a little each day until it's accomplished
Step up and volunteer to be the 1st and 2nd grade Sunday School teacher
Speak with the Children's ministry leader about Directing VBS next year.

Bible Study

At our Monday night Bible study, we have been doing the Women of Faith videos.  They are great!  Passion, Praise, People, Purpose.

Each week we watch a video (Passion...Luci Swindoll; Praise...Thelma Wells; People...Marilyn Meburg; Purpose...Patsy Clairmont), have a discussion ran by our facilitator, then we are given questions to think about or journal about.

I have never been to a Women of Faith conference before, but from what I understand, they are great!  Hopefully some day they will come to a town near me so I can go!

Thankful Thursday

It's Thankful Thursday again!

I'm Thankful for...

  1. Becoming a Sunday School Teacher!
  2. Having a wonderful Children's ministry in our church!
  3. A wonderful lady who will be co-teaching with me!
  4. For wonderful ideas on how to get our children involved in memorizing scripture!
  5. For my FRIENDS!  Yes, friends that I have!
  6. For being able to go out with a friend this weekend for coffee...away from kids!
  7. For my laptop, so I can keep in touch with friends and family!
  8. For school getting ready to start.
  9. For being able to get a reservation at a B&B that we wanted!
  10. For healthy boys...all 4 of them...well let's make that 5 and add Kevin!!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Today's Thankful Thursday again!  I'm starting to look forward every week to Thursdays just because I get to share with you all everything I'm Thankful for!

  • I'm Thankful for the warm weather, but the rain is good too!
  • I'm Thankful for my 4 boys being healthy, some children are always sick...mine are usually healthy (we have our moments though).
  • I'm Thankful that my husband has given me some money to go shopping for some new clothes!  I haven't had new clothes in a long time!!  I'm excited, last night I went out, got a Manicure/Pedicure and went shopping and bought an outfit!
  • I'm Thankful that "M"'s school stuff is coming in.  I absolutely LOVE mail (everything but the bills), so having the UPS guy deliver boxes to my door...I'm in Heaven (even if it means work to come).
  • I'm Thankful that I got to spend Tuesday with my friend, Kim!  Our children got along pretty well too!
  • I'm Thankful that my Appointment book turned out well!  I didn't like the cover of my book, so I Mod Podged it!  Now it's a brown color (sort of looks like leather) with Bible verse stickers on the front!
  • I'm Thankful that Renee (my friend in MN) and her family are all ok.  Her husband went over that bridge a few hours before it collapsed!
  • I'm Thankful for Christian music.  I don't know what I would do without it.  I love listening to it, and I don't have to worry about the lyrics when the children are around!
  • I'm Thankful for answered prayers!  I've had a few in the past couple weeks!

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Monday, August 6, 2007

A camping we will go...a camping we will go...

On Friday we headed out in the morning for our camping trip.  This trip would be different than our usual camping trips.  Instead of pre-booking our site and having to set up/tear down a tent, we used my Aunt Carol's camper on her permanent site.  Kevin's brother has a permanent site 2 campers down from my Aunt's so we all got to camp together!

We had so much fun!  "D" & "A" fought over the play tractor they had at their camper.  "M", "N", and "K" (my niece) all played well together...only a few times we had to say "play nice".

Saturday, they had a car show at the campgrounds and my parents came over and had lunch and supper with us.  Later that evening, my sister and her 4 kids came over.  We went and played Hillbilly Golf (aka Ladder Golf), and Corn hole, while my sister's 2 girls took all the rest of the kids (minus my sister's boys) to the park.

Sunday it rained HARD too!  We were so thankful that we didn't have a tent to tear down in that rain!  We left that afternoon and stopped over at my parent's house before heading home!

We all had so much fun!  We got home and my boys were asking when we were going to go camping again!

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Thankful Thursday

Today is Thankful Thursday!  This week is on Blessings!

1.  I'm Blessed with a wonderful family.  With a wonderful (loving) husband who supports our whole family and would do anything for me.  With 4 boys (I don't know if I would be able to handle a girl). With a sister who showed me the Love of the Father.  With a mother and father who would do anything they possibly could to help us out (even when they don't have much to give).

2.  I'm Blessed with a wonderful Church family.  Even when we were new members they helped us out in a capacity that I would have NEVER expected.  The friendliness in this church is something that is a blessing to anyone who walks into the doors.  The members know how to be hospitable!

3.  I'm Blessed to have a roof over my head.  I at times complain because we don't own our own place, but I do have a nice place that we live in.  There may not be a lot of room in the yard and we have to share with our neighbors, but we aren't living on the street.  We have a bed to sleep in every night.  Someday we will leave this place for another, I've decided to be content where I'm at now!

4.  I'm Blessed to have 2 vehicles.  Even if my car isn't working properly (it'll be fixed probably within a week), but we have 2.  I'm not stuck at home when Kevin goes to work.  I have the ability to go to the store if needed, deliver AVON products to my clients, go to a park (since we don't have much of a yard), go to friends' houses.

5.  I'm Blessed to a wonderful Savior!  One who stepped down from heaven, and spent time on this earth as a Man.  Just to fulfill his destiny of being crucified on a cross and to die for my sins!  Someone once told me (when I was young) that even if I were the ONLY person on this earth, God would have still sent His Son just for me!  It's that personal relationship that I'm so blessed with that has my heart leaping for Joy!

Wednesday, August 1, 2007


I have been so blessed to be asked over to a friends house not only 1, but 2 different friends!  This means so much to me!  I'm starting to feel connections!  I had been crying out to God for friends the past few weeks.  God Hears our prayers!

Thank you Lord for answering my cries!!

“And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you." John 16:23

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Serve in Joy

I was reading Ecclesiastes today and in the 2nd chapter it talks about the Futility of Work and the lack of joy and enthusiasm.  I have been there.  It's hard to do your duties when you dislike what you are doing.

God calls us to have a purpose.  I believe that when you follow God's calling and are doing what you were created to do, you will do it with JOY.  The joy that I had this past week during VBS was wonderful.  I was in a ministry that I wasn't called to be in, but was put there, there was no joy on the days I had to work.  That's not what God's work should be like.

So, my prayer has been that God will not only show me what it is that I am called to do in regards to the Children's Ministry at our church, but also that it would bring joy not only to me but also to those I serve!

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything.  Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand.  His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Phillippians 4: 6-7

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Thankful Thursday

So today is Thankful Thursday.  What am I thankful for today?

I've been working at VBS this week, so I'm going to focus on that for my Thankful Thursday!

1.'s a great place for children to learn about God.
2. As a crew leader, I'm in charge of a group of children.  On Monday, I had 5; Tuesday, I had 7; Wednesday, I had 8! So, I'm thankful that these children are bringing their friends!
3. I'm thankful for the Children's ministry director...she is running our VBS.  She's a wonderful lady.  (Yes, the same lady who has asked me to pray about teaching).
4. I haven't had to make supper at all this week!  We have been provided with food at the church every night since I'm working at VBS!
5. I'm seeing children grow.  It's awesome to see them light up to what they are being taught!
6. That through VBS, I believe God is using me to prepare me for teaching or at least working with children in the Children's Ministry of our church.
7. That I'm having fun...I'm actually enjoying myself!
8. My boys are excited to go!  "M" & "N"  are both in my "group", but "N" is in my crew!  "D" & "A" had been in the nursery during VBS for 2 days (Kevin was late getting home).
9. I'm making new friends in church!  People I've known, but now I'm actually getting to know them better!
10. For each child in my group, they have blessed me more than they know!  Those smiles make my heart leap!

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Monday, July 23, 2007

The Big Day!

I didn't have time to be nervous...we've been busy all day!  I didn't sleep well.  I was up late helping my sister put the finishing touches on my cake!  That and, too much on my mind.  10 am we had an appointment for me, my mom, and my nieces to have their hair done.  We had worked on this before, so I knew what she was going to do to my hair.  We decided my niece would have her hair just like mine.

After we were done getting our hair done, it was lunch time.  We decided to get some pizza.  While waiting for the Pizza, we ran over to the Hall to make sure everything was set up.  We had a few touches we needed to do...a couple decorations fell, so we fixed them.  I didn't help much yesterday with decorating since I had to run to Meijer and get my paycheck and pick up some last minute "thank you" gifts.  It was nice to see the hall all decorated.  I looked around and took in all the sites.  The cake table is set up in the corner, with the plates and napkins already in place on the table.  The tables are all set the way we wanted.  there's plenty of room for dancing and the DJ to set up.  I turn and look at the Bridal Party's table.  It is so pretty with the white table cloth and bows.  In front of it is a small picnic style table made for children that we decorated up for all my nieces and nephews!

We get back to the house and eat lunch.  One of my nieces took her hair down...all that work and she didn't like it.  I guess it's ok, she's only 3.  I'm determined that the little things that could go wrong today won't bother me.

I'm getting a little anxious...jittery!  I'm ready to go to the church and get dressed.  Shortly after we arrive, I realize that the flowers that we left on the alter yesterday have's so hot, but I didn't think that they would die so quickly.  When my Aunt Jan arrives and asks if I needed anything, I beg her to get some new roses so we can give our mothers a nice rose!

Things are going pretty well.  My Aunt Carol arrived and has been taking pictures of us getting ready.  The 4 ladies in their Royal Blue dresses..."high-low" as they were called.  An open back with a bow.  The opening in the back almost resembles a heart, but not quite.  They look great on them all...especially for getting them for only $25 each!  And me in my White dress...Off the shoulder with sequence on the front and down the train.  I absolutely fell in love with this dress at the Flea Market a few months back.  It was only $300...not so bad when the original tag had $900 on it!

We are ready for the ladies to get their pictures taken.  We go down to the's HOT.  Aunt Carol and Kevin's Uncle Bill are taking pictures.  We decided that we'd have them do it since they offered to take them for us...why pay for a professional?  We've seen their work...they both do a wonderful job with taking pictures!

I can't believe how fast the day is going.  We are back upstairs waiting.  Kevin and the guys are getting their pictures taken.  We are just roaming around upstairs because of being so HOT in that little changing room.  Kevin's little cousin is throwing a fit...she probably won't go down the isle.  Oh well, I guess that's what you get for having a 4 year old in your wedding!  Mom keeps telling me that if "M" won't go down the isle, we have 2 other little girls in the same dress that could do it for her.  I calmly look at them and say...whomever goes down, goes down!

"Jg1" (my niece) and "Jb1" (my nephew) look so cute together! "Jg1" is wearing a miniature Bride's dress.  My mom did a wonderful job getting the appliqué put onto the dress and giving it a train.  It looks so similar to mine!  She's also wearing a's too cute!  "Jb1" is in a white tux with tails...He matches Kevin!  "Jb1" came up to me with a sad face and says "I don't want to marry "M"...I want to marry "Jg1"!" How cute is that?  He gets to walk down the isle with "M" (Kevin's cousin) instead of "Jg1" (my niece)...I guess he thinks he's getting married today too!

The guests start filing in, so I'm heading back to the room.  I want to stay out of site!  Oh another bump in the road...the guy who is doing my video is arguing with his (soon to be) ex-wife (one of my friends)!  This can't be good...he's also my DJ!  I walk away and my sister (Liz) tells me that if he leaves, her husband has brought with him all his equipment which would be enough for him to DJ.  Apparently they heard them fighting last night at the Rehearsal too!

Mom gives me a kiss and leaves.  That means it's time to line up!  Dad is there to help me walk down the isle.  I'm very excited and nervous.  I watch as Melodi (my friend) and Brian (Kevin's friend) go down the isle first.  Then Wendy (my friend) and Pat (Kevin's brother) go down (funny how they are dating now) is the Matron of Honor, Deb (my sister) and one of the Best Men, Brett (Kevin's cousin)...The butterflies are really flying now!  The Ring Bearer and Flower Girl..."Jb1" (my nephew) and "M" (Kevin's cousin) are going down.  Next the Maid of Honor, Kim (my friend) and the other Best Man, Joe (Kevin's friend) go down.  Once they are down, we send the miniature Bride, "Jg1" (my niece).  Dad and I are the only ones left.  After all the Ohs and Ahs from everyone, we hear the music.  It's time.  We start off..."Dad, wait!" I say...Dad turns to me and looks..."I lost my shoe!" I say trying not to laugh.  I get my shoe back on and we turn to go down the isle.

There he is...he's looking at me.  Just look at that smile on his face!  I've been waiting for this moment for quite some time now!  As a little girl, I dreamed of this moment.  Even in my dreams he was there...I couldn't quite make him out, but I do know he had glasses, dark hair and was taller than me!  God was showing me my wedding!

As dad and i reach the alter, I see everyone staring at me, but it doesn't matter.  The only thing that matters at this moment is Kevin...I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with him!

"I Do!"

I can remember so much of it vividly...however, there are pieces that are missing that I use photos and videos to help me remember.

13 years and 4 children later, I still love him so much!  We are now both Christians and parents.  Things are so much different now than what they were that day, but I wouldn't change a thing!

Today, July 23, 2007, Kevin and I celebrate our 13th wedding Anniversary!

Friday, July 20, 2007


friend·ship (frěnd'shĭp')


  1. The quality or condition of being friends.
  2. A friendly relationship: formed many new friendships over the summer.
  3. Friendliness; good will: a policy of friendship toward other nations.

I have never been one to have a problem with making friends.  I have had many friends over the years, but if you ask me who my friends are right now, I'd have a very hard time telling you.   I do have friends from the MOMS Club, and friends from Church, etc.  But to say I have 1 true friend...well other than my husband, at this point in my life, I can't say I have a close friend.

It's sad, I know, I've talked about this before.  This past week, I've done some reflection on my life.  I focused on many areas of my life.  Cried out to God on many occasions during my time alone with Him.  One thing that I've cried out for more than once is 1 true friend that I can count on to be there...a "best friend".

What I've learned over this past week, is that hold back when it comes to making friends.  I've never done that before, but things have changed over the years.  I've made some really close friends and ended up moving away, leaving them behind.

When I lived with my parents, I had quite a few friends (most were from HS).  Well, you know how life goes, we all went to college, and before all of my friends were done with college, I was married and living 45 minutes away.  So, we lost touch with each other.

I made friends in college, we kept in contact since we were about 20 minutes away from each other.  I made friends at work, we were semi close (not real close, but when you are in the same environment with the same people day in and day out, they tend to become friends with you).  Then it happened.  We moved to Colorado.  We all started losing touch with each other.

While in Colorado, I made friends with a few people.  I would say I had about 3 close friends.  Then it happened again...We moved to Minnesota.  I lost touch with all of them, except 1 (she happened to move away before I moved).

While in Minnesota, I made some friends (I'm starting to sound redundant...bear with me).  (A few friends I "thought" were my friends, but as soon as I moved to the next town over, that was it).  And happened....We moved back to Ohio.  I have to say 2 of those friends I was close with, we stay in touch as much as we can through email and phone calls, but it's still not the same.

When we moved here, I joined the MOMS Club right away and we joined our church.  I have met quite a few people I'd consider friends, but I still long for that 1 close friend...that best friend.  A lot of my problem is I've moved so much and "lost" so many friends that I feel like I'm holding back from becoming someone's best friend.

So, I've come to the conclusion that it's me that's holding back...Friendship is a 2 way street...but how can I be good friends when I'm afraid of losing them?

I know in time, my heart will change and I'll let someone in.  I pray that it's sooner than later, loneliness is not a friend I want to keep!

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Thankful Thursday

Today is Thankful Thursday.  So what am I thankful for today?

1.  I'm Thankful that I've had this week without my 2 oldest boys.  Even though I've missed them, it's given me a break and time to focus on God.  I've used this time away from them to dig down into myself and try and make some changes in my Spiritual life.

2.  I'm Thankful that in the past few days, my prayers have changed.  I've prayed more of what's on my heart than just few things.  I've prayed more often in the past few days than I have prayed in a while.

3.  I'm Thankful for people like Joyce Meyer, Benny Hinn, Beth Moore, and many more who have followed their calling and are Teaching things that I need to know.  And for Christian Television.

4.  I'm Thankful that even though my car's breaks are going to need to be replaced (rotars too), that I can still get out and about because we have been Blessed with 2 vehicles.

5.  I'm Thankful that even though I didn't want to go on Monday to Bible Study, that I felt the urging to go and that I actually went.  I was challenged and it was exactly what I needed!  Now I *KNOW* that I will follow through and going to the entire study we are currently doing (which is a tape series from a Ladies Conference...something about 4 P's...Praise, Purpose, People, & Passion).

If you are interested in seeing what others are Thankful for this Thursday, you can find them at Laurel's Blog

Tuesday, July 17, 2007


Don't sin by letting anger control over you.  Think about it overnight and remain silent. Psalms 4:4-5

I came across this today in my reading.  It struck me.  I have been harboring some anger.  And because of the anger, I've sinned.  I need to remember when things start spinning out of control to stop and think about it before just blowing up in anger.

Father, please forgive me for my anger and the outbursts that come from it.  Help me to remember to stop and think and remain silent instead of saying things I regret later.  In Jesus Name, Amen.

What do you do with 2 less kids?

Grocery shopping!!  It was a lot quicker than when I have all 4 of them with me!  Oh and no one asked "Can I get this?"!  Now, that in itself was exciting to me!!

I did end up cleaning a little yesterday as well...not that my house is all that clean, but I did get some stuff done!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Well, I just got home from being up at my parent's house. It was a last minute thing. I decided since Kevin had to work so late on Friday that I would just head up to my parent's house and drop the boys off, that way when Kevin got home, he could have an uninterrupted sleep...without the boys distracting him!

So "M" & "N" are gone for the week. Whatever will I do with myself? I'm sure "D" & "A" will keep me busy...but I need to figure out what I want to do this week. There are things that NEED to be done, like deep cleaning and laundry, but how much of that can I do with two 2 year olds running about?

I think I honestly need to use this time away from my older 2 to re-energize myself...Spiritually! I don't have to do school this week since "M" isn't going to be at home. "N" won't be picking on the twins, so I should be able to get some time to myself...mainly during nap time.

Hmmm...I think I need to pray about this tonight and start tomorrow with some reflection on my days (which are quite chaotic at times with 4 boys) and see where the Lord wants to take me so that I may begin changing my attitude, which will be ever so helpful when it comes to dealing with 4 boys!

Those of you who read, if you wouldn't mind, keep me in your prayers this week, so that I may do some "Spring Cleaning" in my heart. I think it's time I need to focus my energies on this!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Good Morning!!

I'm not awake this morning...yet.  Where's my coffee??  I guess I don't have a maid, so I'd better get it myself  *sigh*  If only I had a maid!!  LOL

Kevin has to work late tonight (real till 6 am tomorrow!  Almost 24 hours!).  I'm not looking forward to it at all.

Monday evenings I usually go to Bible study at our church, however, our Group leader just had her knee replaced, so we haven't been meeting as regularly.  We are meeting this Monday though...we are doing a video series that one of the other ladies already had at her home.  It's from the Women Of Faith Conference...3 or 4 videos.  We go this week, then we are off the next week (VBS) and then back on and when we finish, our Group leader says she should be ready to get back and lead again for the Fall.

I can't believe how much I've missed it.  We've had 2 weeks off and it's completely thrown me for a loop.

Next week my sister will be taking my 2 oldest for a week!  She runs the VBS at her church, so every year she keeps my boys for that week.  I'll probably go up there (1 1/2 hours away) in the middle of the week (probably after Tuesday when my AVON order comes in so I can deliver it).

Ugh, what a boring entry huh?

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Thankful Thursday

I've been surfing and reading through some new blogs.  I noticed many of them doing a Thankful Thursday.  I like it, so I'm going to jump onto the bandwagon!

I'm thankful for...
1.  My husband, Kevin.  He is my best friend.  Without him, I wouldn't be the person I am today.  He works so hard to provide for our family and allowing me to be a SAHM.

2.  My boys.  Each of them with their own personality make up a part of who I am as well.  With each pregnancy, I've changed, not just physically.  "M" just celebrated his 10th birthday, he's growing into quite a nice young man.  "N" will be 7 this fall, going into the 1st grade this year.  He's what I like to call my "middle" child.  He is full of energy at home and quiet in public.  "D" & "A" are both 2....they are full of energy and then some!  Having 2 the same age makes things a bit more challenging.  Born at 31 weeks, "D" & "A" had a rough beginning, but just seeing them healthy, happy, and normal makes all that I went through to have them worth it!

3.  Ohio.  I'm so glad we are back in Ohio, close to family.  Although I wouldn't trade living in CO or MN for the life of me.  We grew closer being away from family.  We learned so much about our lives together and our love for the Lord while we were away those 6 years.  It's sad we missed out on so much of my nieces' and nephews' lives, but we are back now and making up for lost time!

4.  Our Church Family.  Without them, I don't know how I would survive!  They have stepped up so many times to help when we needed.  For example, when I found out I was pregnant with our twins, we had just started going to this church.  Of course I had asked for prayers throughout the pregnancy as things began to worry me.  When the boys were born, the Pastor was a matter of fact, he was able to see my boys before my husband did (that's a long story for another time).  The members of the church then provided prayers and a shower, and also meals while the boys were in the NICU.

5.  My family.  Without my sister who allowed Jesus to shine through her, I wouldn't be a Christian.  My mom who "Prays without ceasing" for me and my family.  My dad for his tenderness, something I didn't see growing up.  My nieces and nephews who show their faith, even at a young age!

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Hardest time...

I'm having the hardest time staying on a diet.  I just don't have the will power!  I try, but I fail every time!

I need to lose 40 pounds to be in my "Ideal weight" range, however, just 20-30 pounds would be wonderful to me!

Summer is here...I want to swim and not feel so self-concious about being in my bathing suit.

My 15th High School Reunion is coming up...I really don't want to be overweight for that either.

My boys...I want to keep up with them!

Health...I know with being overweight, it can cause health issues...ones I don't want.

If I wasn't so lazy...I guess this wouldn't be an issue!

Monday, June 25, 2007


Yesterday, we went swimming at a friend from church's house.  My boys had a wonderful time!  It was our first time there...they played games in the basement for a while!

When I went down to the basement, I was surprised!!  they have an entire room FILLED with videos/DVDs!  It looks like a library, except they are movies, not books!  I think they have more than our local library has!  The boys were playing the playstation on a huge projection screen!  The characters were probably the same size they were!!  The other part of the basement has a pool table, fooze ball table, pinball game, and 3 other video games!  Perfect for children and teens!

The people's house we were at, have 2 grown children and are the family in the church who always take the children for the day/night.  I can see why the children LOVE going there now! :)

When we were leaving, they made sure to let me know that we can come and swim there anytime we wanted!

Monday, June 18, 2007


This weekend my Aunt Jan was diagnosed with Stage 1 Breast Cancer.  If you could remember her in prayer, I'd really appreciate it!


We had our Annual Father's Day Camping weekend with my mom's family this past weekend.  We stayed at Ft. Loramie this year instead of Indian Lake.  Everyone seemed to like Ft. Loramie better, well everyone except Kevin and dad!  They said the fishing was BAD there!

We got there on Friday around 3 pm.  Unloaded the truck and set up our tent.  I took Daniel & Andrew over to my cousin's in-laws to watch in their camper until our tent was set up.

My mom and dad got there shortly after we had our tent all set boys ate lunch meat sandwiches for lunch.  Then about an hour later, my sister showed up.

Saturday, I didn't feel well, when I got up and most of the day.  It was HOT!  I had a headache the whole time!  I usually get them when I'm out in the sun too long!  I tried very hard this time not to rely on my sister's camper.  I wanted to see if we could camp on our own without bugging my sister.  I did...until I was so sick on Saturday.  I went to take a shower, then sat in her trailer with the air conditioner on for a half hour or so.  Felt quite a bit better.  As I was sitting there, I then realized that I hadn't eaten all day!

Later that evening, we had our Big dinner together.  Everyone that was there (my 2 aunts, my 2 cousin's families, one of my cousin's in-laws, one of my cousin's friends, my family, my parents, and my sister) contributed a dish to share...and there was more food than we all needed!  But since I didn't eat all day, it all looked good!

After dinner, my dad, my brother in law, K, and my nephew all played cards while my mom took Daniel & Andrew for a walk.  My niece took Michael & Noah to the lake to play.  It was fun watching my dad teach them all to play poker.  My dad was a HUGE poker player and would always win lots of money (back in the day), but he doesn't play much any more...except with family.

Sunday, we got up and started packing up.  I took the boys to the Christian Puppet Show they had was pretty good!  My boys all watched it all the way through!  Kevin drank a little too much on Sat, and was feeling it on Sunday!

Afterwards, we headed to my parent's house for lunch before we headed back home!

Monday, June 11, 2007

Sister's Wedding

We went to Liz & Pat's wedding this past weekend.  Her girls were just beautiful!  I hadn't seen Jessica (her one daughter) in a dress since...hmmm...probably since she was at my wedding 13 years ago!  She looked so beautiful!  Of course Jordan (her other daughter) did as well!

Liz wore a cream colored dress with a black sash.  Pat wore a black tux.  "J" & "J" (her daughters) wore black dresses (no back).  Her wedding was an outdoor wedding and  the weather was wonderful for that as well!

I took a TON of pictures...mostly with my SLR camera (too bad it's not digital...boy do I want one of those) and some with my Digital one.  I ruined a whole roll of film because I didn't let the film wind all the way before opening the back...what was I thinking???

The reception was lovely as well.  They served hors d'oeuvres and drinks right after the wedding and then a wonderful meal!  They also had a guy come in and draw characteratures of people.  We got ours done.

We stayed overnight in a hotel just a couple blocks from where they got married.  Then on Sunday, we went back to their house and watched them open up their gifts.

While we were at their house, we gave dad our Father's Day gift/Christmas gift...a boat!  He was very happy!

Friday, June 8, 2007

He's back...

Aslan has returned!!!

He went straight for the food when he got here!  I need to give him a bath...make sure we treat him for fleas (just in case)!!

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Lost Kitty...

Our Aslan ran away!  He got out on Tuesday night (we assume) when we were leaving for Kevin's softball game.  When we got home, I was looking all over the house for him...outside in the bushes where he usually hides when he gets out, and around the house.  We have woods behind our house and on the other side of the woods, there's a housing development.  We've been keeping our eyes out for him, but there's just no trace of him!

Since he "adopted" us, we figured he may have wondered back to where he originally came from.  He's so friendly that someone probably snatched him up!

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Love is in the air

Well, wedding season is upon us!  My sister gets married this weekend.  I'm excited, we will be staying in Columbus for a night.  She is marrying such a wonderful man too!  From the moment we (our family) met him, he just fit right in!  It was like he was a part of our family forever!!

So, we also got an invitation to Kevin's cousin's wedding as well...same day!  I was surprised!  I mean, there are so many weekends in the wedding season, and to have 2 weddings in the family on the same day!

The other day, we got an invitation to one of Kevin's coworker's wedding!  That's in's an Adult only reception, so my parents are going to come and babysit.  And the weird thing is it's on a Sunday.

My MIL told me that another of Kevin's cousins is getting married at the end of the summer.

That's a lot of weddings!!


 We have a cat, his name is Aslan.  He (along with another cat who has since ran away) adopted us.  I have NEVER in my life seen a cat so laid back as this one.  He'll sit there when the twins pull his tail and just meow...and not very loud at that.  He spends most of his day sleeping behind my chair.  In the evenings, he'll come out and sit on my lap and run around a bit...I guess since the boys are in bed!

We gave our cat some catnip for the first time the other day.  He was rolling all over it, licking it, and acting so funny!  I would bend down to try and touch his pile of cat nip and he would lay on it.

 We also have this laser pointer that the cat chases, it was fun to see a loopy cat chase a red dot on the floor!

Do you know your Love Language?

We have been studying Gary Chapman's Five Love Languages: Learn the Languages
in our Bible Study.  It is very interesting!  It's a bit different since Gary Chapman has written many different books on this subject, we are all using the book we need.  I am doing the Five Love Languages: Learn the Languages (It's geared toward couples, but touches on children) and also the Five Love Languages of Children.  It's very insightful!  I'm learning so much about how to "fill the love tank" of others!

If you haven't read it and are wondering why you or your child doesn't feel loved, it's worth picking up.  You probably not speaking their love language!

Wednesday, May 30, 2007


For Mother's Day this year, My boys and dh got me a Wii Gaming system!  I'm so excited!  We've all been having fun on it!

If you have a Wii and are hooked up to the internet, let me know!!

Catching up!

I'm in my last month as the AVP for the MOMS Club.  My emotions about it are torn.  Part of me is relieved that I don't have to worry about it anymore (not that there was much to worry about in the first place), but on the other hand, I'm going to miss working so closely to those ladies and going out to dinner with them once a month for our board meetings.

We are all looking forward to summer.  To kick off our summer, my sister is getting married.  So we will be staying in Columbus for that (6/9) and then we have our Annual Father's Day Weekend Camping trip.  This year it got moved to a different campground (Ft. Loramie) since our usual one (Indian Lake) was having maintenance done on the pet area that we usually get and we wouldn't be able to book it until the Friday that we were going to be camping!

After that, we don't really have any plans...except Kevin wants to get a dog!  He wants a full-blooded German Shepherd this time!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Wow...what a place!  I'll definitely say it's not someplace I'd want to take my children, and if we did, they wouldn't go outside.  The strip was littered with a bunch of "junk".  Men (and women) stood on the street handing out "Calling Cards" for girls and people would just throw them on the ground.  No if it weren't for that, it wouldn't be so bad!

We stayed in the Stratosphere Tower Hotel, which was at the North end of the Strip...The Strip was 4 miles long.  Most of what we wanted to see was at the South end, so we did a lot of walking!  I had 3 blisters by the 1st day!  We quickly picked up a bus pass and used it.

We basically ate 1 meal a day (usually Buffet) and snacked the rest of the day.  Those Hotels are amazing!  The way they structured them like different places in the world!  WOW!

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Las Vegas here we come!

I just can't believe that I'm only days away from going to Las Vegas! Kevin and I leave on Saturday morning!!  I'm taking the boys to my parent's house on Friday (that's when Spring break starts for them).  I haven't been away from the twins for more than 1 night since they've been born.

I'm excited to be spending time with just Kevin...we need this time together to recharge!

Monday, April 2, 2007

This sounds so pathetic!!

So over the past few months, I've been pondering how I've been treated as a friend.  I've realized that I have more online friends than real life friends.  It's a sad reality that I am faced with.  I've posted before how I've been treated with my real life friends and it's not like I've completely "cut them out", but I've "given up".  I'm tired of being the one who has to initiate conversations, calls, etc.

So fast forward to 2 weeks ago.  I wanted to go out shopping...Kevin didn't want to go, he told me to go ahead and go.  So I sat here and thought, "Who can I call to go with me shopping?"  I came up with NO ONE!  I went through my whole address book...and nothing!  The people who lived close enough to me to go, I wouldn't really consider them close friends, well, not close enough to ask to go shopping with...the ones I used to ask, they live so far away and have a life of their own.

So here I am...the reality has hit me like a brick!  I don't have a close friend like I used to have.  Maybe I'm living in the past where no one had a family or whatever, but it's a very sad thing.  I have my husband, he is my friend, my best friend, but that's not what I want.  I want a close girlfriend to go out with, to call when I need to chat, etc.  These are things I've had before...I had them when I was in Ohio years ago...I had them when I was in Colorado....I had them when I was in Minnesota...why not now?

Ok, I'm done sounding pathetic!

Sunday, April 1, 2007

40 Days Completed!

I have finished the 40 Days of Purpose!  WOW!  There was a lot of good information in that many things I'm working on.  I feel as though I've been attacked throughout this whole study!

Sunday, March 4, 2007

40 Days of Purpose

So much is happening in my life right now.  I just don't know where to start.  I'm seeing so many things that I don't like, things that need to be changed.  These things seem to be amplified right now...I'm sure it's an attack from Satan trying to trip me up, and keep me from learning what my Purpose is.

I am behind in my reading, but I'm planning on working hard to get caught up.

I'm learning so much too...I never realized that my prayers weren't in complete honesty.  Don't get me wrong, I wasn't lieing to God, just praying prayers that I thought he wanted me to pray.  It wasn't every time, but it seems that more and more I wasn't being total open and honest with God!  Also, how Worship isn't just's every act you do in honor to God.

Anyway, just wanted to post some of the things I'm learning right now.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

40 Days of Purpose

So far I've been doing well with my 40 Days of Purpose.  I've been reading every day like I need to, writing in my journal and everything!  However, I haven't done today's work...I need to get on that!  Tomorrow I need to do it early so I don't have to take it with me when I go out of town.

I've learned a few things about myself that I don't particularly care for.  :(  I've been in prayer about those things and with God's help, I'll change!  I've also realized, I can't change others like I want to.

There are things in dh that I've been wanting changed.  I've spoke to him about them and then through my Bible Study, I've realized that I'm going about things all wrong!  1st off, I can't change him, if he's going to change, it's going to have to be his doing, not mine.  1 Peter 3:1-2 says Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives when they see the purity and reverence of your lives.

So taking that information into account, I applied this the other day to our lives.  When something that I knew dh did wasn't right, I kept my mouth shut, and prayed.  And the amazing thing is that he corrected his actions.  I was amazed.  Now if I can remember to keep my mouth shut and actually respect and honor my husband!!