So over the past few months, I've been pondering how I've been treated as a friend. I've realized that I have more online friends than real life friends. It's a sad reality that I am faced with. I've posted before how I've been treated with my real life friends and it's not like I've completely "cut them out", but I've "given up". I'm tired of being the one who has to initiate conversations, calls, etc.
So fast forward to 2 weeks ago. I wanted to go out shopping...Kevin didn't want to go, he told me to go ahead and go. So I sat here and thought, "Who can I call to go with me shopping?" I came up with NO ONE! I went through my whole address book...and nothing! The people who lived close enough to me to go, I wouldn't really consider them close friends, well, not close enough to ask to go shopping with...the ones I used to ask, they live so far away and have a life of their own.
So here I am...the reality has hit me like a brick! I don't have a close friend like I used to have. Maybe I'm living in the past where no one had a family or whatever, but it's a very sad thing. I have my husband, he is my friend, my best friend, but that's not what I want. I want a close girlfriend to go out with, to call when I need to chat, etc. These are things I've had before...I had them when I was in Ohio years ago...I had them when I was in Colorado....I had them when I was in Minnesota...why not now?
Ok, I'm done sounding pathetic!