Sunday, July 29, 2007

Serve in Joy

I was reading Ecclesiastes today and in the 2nd chapter it talks about the Futility of Work and the lack of joy and enthusiasm.  I have been there.  It's hard to do your duties when you dislike what you are doing.

God calls us to have a purpose.  I believe that when you follow God's calling and are doing what you were created to do, you will do it with JOY.  The joy that I had this past week during VBS was wonderful.  I was in a ministry that I wasn't called to be in, but was put there, there was no joy on the days I had to work.  That's not what God's work should be like.

So, my prayer has been that God will not only show me what it is that I am called to do in regards to the Children's Ministry at our church, but also that it would bring joy not only to me but also to those I serve!

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything.  Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand.  His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Phillippians 4: 6-7

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Thankful Thursday

So today is Thankful Thursday.  What am I thankful for today?

I've been working at VBS this week, so I'm going to focus on that for my Thankful Thursday!

1.  VBS...it's a great place for children to learn about God.
2. As a crew leader, I'm in charge of a group of children.  On Monday, I had 5; Tuesday, I had 7; Wednesday, I had 8! So, I'm thankful that these children are bringing their friends!
3. I'm thankful for the Children's ministry director...she is running our VBS.  She's a wonderful lady.  (Yes, the same lady who has asked me to pray about teaching).
4. I haven't had to make supper at all this week!  We have been provided with food at the church every night since I'm working at VBS!
5. I'm seeing children grow.  It's awesome to see them light up to what they are being taught!
6. That through VBS, I believe God is using me to prepare me for teaching or at least working with children in the Children's Ministry of our church.
7. That I'm having fun...I'm actually enjoying myself!
8. My boys are excited to go!  "M" & "N"  are both in my "group", but "N" is in my crew!  "D" & "A" had been in the nursery during VBS for 2 days (Kevin was late getting home).
9. I'm making new friends in church!  People I've known, but now I'm actually getting to know them better!
10. For each child in my group, they have blessed me more than they know!  Those smiles make my heart leap!

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Monday, July 23, 2007

The Big Day!

I didn't have time to be nervous...we've been busy all day!  I didn't sleep well.  I was up late helping my sister put the finishing touches on my cake!  That and, too much on my mind.  10 am we had an appointment for me, my mom, and my nieces to have their hair done.  We had worked on this before, so I knew what she was going to do to my hair.  We decided my niece would have her hair just like mine.

After we were done getting our hair done, it was lunch time.  We decided to get some pizza.  While waiting for the Pizza, we ran over to the Hall to make sure everything was set up.  We had a few touches we needed to do...a couple decorations fell, so we fixed them.  I didn't help much yesterday with decorating since I had to run to Meijer and get my paycheck and pick up some last minute "thank you" gifts.  It was nice to see the hall all decorated.  I looked around and took in all the sites.  The cake table is set up in the corner, with the plates and napkins already in place on the table.  The tables are all set the way we wanted.  there's plenty of room for dancing and the DJ to set up.  I turn and look at the Bridal Party's table.  It is so pretty with the white table cloth and bows.  In front of it is a small picnic style table made for children that we decorated up for all my nieces and nephews!

We get back to the house and eat lunch.  One of my nieces took her hair down...all that work and she didn't like it.  I guess it's ok, she's only 3.  I'm determined that the little things that could go wrong today won't bother me.

I'm getting a little anxious...jittery!  I'm ready to go to the church and get dressed.  Shortly after we arrive, I realize that the flowers that we left on the alter yesterday have died...it's so hot, but I didn't think that they would die so quickly.  When my Aunt Jan arrives and asks if I needed anything, I beg her to get some new roses so we can give our mothers a nice rose!

Things are going pretty well.  My Aunt Carol arrived and has been taking pictures of us getting ready.  The 4 ladies in their Royal Blue dresses..."high-low" as they were called.  An open back with a bow.  The opening in the back almost resembles a heart, but not quite.  They look great on them all...especially for getting them for only $25 each!  And me in my White dress...Off the shoulder with sequence on the front and down the train.  I absolutely fell in love with this dress at the Flea Market a few months back.  It was only $300...not so bad when the original tag had $900 on it!

We are ready for the ladies to get their pictures taken.  We go down to the sanctuary...it's HOT.  Aunt Carol and Kevin's Uncle Bill are taking pictures.  We decided that we'd have them do it since they offered to take them for us...why pay for a professional?  We've seen their work...they both do a wonderful job with taking pictures!

I can't believe how fast the day is going.  We are back upstairs waiting.  Kevin and the guys are getting their pictures taken.  We are just roaming around upstairs because of being so HOT in that little changing room.  Kevin's little cousin is throwing a fit...she probably won't go down the isle.  Oh well, I guess that's what you get for having a 4 year old in your wedding!  Mom keeps telling me that if "M" won't go down the isle, we have 2 other little girls in the same dress that could do it for her.  I calmly look at them and say...whomever goes down, goes down!

"Jg1" (my niece) and "Jb1" (my nephew) look so cute together! "Jg1" is wearing a miniature Bride's dress.  My mom did a wonderful job getting the appliqué put onto the dress and giving it a train.  It looks so similar to mine!  She's also wearing a vial...it's too cute!  "Jb1" is in a white tux with tails...He matches Kevin!  "Jb1" came up to me with a sad face and says "I don't want to marry "M"...I want to marry "Jg1"!" How cute is that?  He gets to walk down the isle with "M" (Kevin's cousin) instead of "Jg1" (my niece)...I guess he thinks he's getting married today too!

The guests start filing in, so I'm heading back to the room.  I want to stay out of site!  Oh another bump in the road...the guy who is doing my video is arguing with his (soon to be) ex-wife (one of my friends)!  This can't be good...he's also my DJ!  I walk away and my sister (Liz) tells me that if he leaves, her husband has brought with him all his equipment which would be enough for him to DJ.  Apparently they heard them fighting last night at the Rehearsal too!

Mom gives me a kiss and leaves.  That means it's time to line up!  Dad is there to help me walk down the isle.  I'm very excited and nervous.  I watch as Melodi (my friend) and Brian (Kevin's friend) go down the isle first.  Then Wendy (my friend) and Pat (Kevin's brother) go down (funny how they are dating now)...next is the Matron of Honor, Deb (my sister) and one of the Best Men, Brett (Kevin's cousin)...The butterflies are really flying now!  The Ring Bearer and Flower Girl..."Jb1" (my nephew) and "M" (Kevin's cousin) are going down.  Next the Maid of Honor, Kim (my friend) and the other Best Man, Joe (Kevin's friend) go down.  Once they are down, we send the miniature Bride, "Jg1" (my niece).  Dad and I are the only ones left.  After all the Ohs and Ahs from everyone, we hear the music.  It's time.  We start off..."Dad, wait!" I say...Dad turns to me and looks..."I lost my shoe!" I say trying not to laugh.  I get my shoe back on and we turn to go down the isle.

There he is...he's looking at me.  Just look at that smile on his face!  I've been waiting for this moment for quite some time now!  As a little girl, I dreamed of this moment.  Even in my dreams he was there...I couldn't quite make him out, but I do know he had glasses, dark hair and was taller than me!  God was showing me my wedding!

As dad and i reach the alter, I see everyone staring at me, but it doesn't matter.  The only thing that matters at this moment is Kevin...I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with him!

"I Do!"

I can remember so much of it vividly...however, there are pieces that are missing that I use photos and videos to help me remember.

13 years and 4 children later, I still love him so much!  We are now both Christians and parents.  Things are so much different now than what they were that day, but I wouldn't change a thing!

Today, July 23, 2007, Kevin and I celebrate our 13th wedding Anniversary!

Friday, July 20, 2007

Friendship

friend·ship (frěnd'shĭp')

n.



  1. The quality or condition of being friends.
  2. A friendly relationship: formed many new friendships over the summer.
  3. Friendliness; good will: a policy of friendship toward other nations.


I have never been one to have a problem with making friends.  I have had many friends over the years, but if you ask me who my friends are right now, I'd have a very hard time telling you.   I do have friends from the MOMS Club, and friends from Church, etc.  But to say I have 1 true friend...well other than my husband, at this point in my life, I can't say I have a close friend.

It's sad, I know, I've talked about this before.  This past week, I've done some reflection on my life.  I focused on many areas of my life.  Cried out to God on many occasions during my time alone with Him.  One thing that I've cried out for more than once is 1 true friend that I can count on to be there...a "best friend".

What I've learned over this past week, is that hold back when it comes to making friends.  I've never done that before, but things have changed over the years.  I've made some really close friends and ended up moving away, leaving them behind.

When I lived with my parents, I had quite a few friends (most were from HS).  Well, you know how life goes, we all went to college, and before all of my friends were done with college, I was married and living 45 minutes away.  So, we lost touch with each other.

I made friends in college, we kept in contact since we were about 20 minutes away from each other.  I made friends at work, we were semi close (not real close, but when you are in the same environment with the same people day in and day out, they tend to become friends with you).  Then it happened.  We moved to Colorado.  We all started losing touch with each other.

While in Colorado, I made friends with a few people.  I would say I had about 3 close friends.  Then it happened again...We moved to Minnesota.  I lost touch with all of them, except 1 (she happened to move away before I moved).

While in Minnesota, I made some friends (I'm starting to sound redundant...bear with me).  (A few friends I "thought" were my friends, but as soon as I moved to the next town over, that was it).  And again...it happened....We moved back to Ohio.  I have to say 2 of those friends I was close with, we stay in touch as much as we can through email and phone calls, but it's still not the same.

When we moved here, I joined the MOMS Club right away and we joined our church.  I have met quite a few people I'd consider friends, but I still long for that 1 close friend...that best friend.  A lot of my problem is I've moved so much and "lost" so many friends that I feel like I'm holding back from becoming someone's best friend.

So, I've come to the conclusion that it's me that's holding back...Friendship is a 2 way street...but how can I be good friends when I'm afraid of losing them?

I know in time, my heart will change and I'll let someone in.  I pray that it's sooner than later, loneliness is not a friend I want to keep!

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Thankful Thursday



Today is Thankful Thursday.  So what am I thankful for today?

1.  I'm Thankful that I've had this week without my 2 oldest boys.  Even though I've missed them, it's given me a break and time to focus on God.  I've used this time away from them to dig down into myself and try and make some changes in my Spiritual life.

2.  I'm Thankful that in the past few days, my prayers have changed.  I've prayed more of what's on my heart than just few things.  I've prayed more often in the past few days than I have prayed in a while.

3.  I'm Thankful for people like Joyce Meyer, Benny Hinn, Beth Moore, and many more who have followed their calling and are Teaching things that I need to know.  And for Christian Television.

4.  I'm Thankful that even though my car's breaks are going to need to be replaced (rotars too), that I can still get out and about because we have been Blessed with 2 vehicles.

5.  I'm Thankful that even though I didn't want to go on Monday to Bible Study, that I felt the urging to go and that I actually went.  I was challenged and it was exactly what I needed!  Now I *KNOW* that I will follow through and going to the entire study we are currently doing (which is a tape series from a Ladies Conference...something about 4 P's...Praise, Purpose, People, & Passion).

If you are interested in seeing what others are Thankful for this Thursday, you can find them at Laurel's Blog

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Anger...

Don't sin by letting anger control over you.  Think about it overnight and remain silent. Psalms 4:4-5

I came across this today in my reading.  It struck me.  I have been harboring some anger.  And because of the anger, I've sinned.  I need to remember when things start spinning out of control to stop and think about it before just blowing up in anger.

Father, please forgive me for my anger and the outbursts that come from it.  Help me to remember to stop and think and remain silent instead of saying things I regret later.  In Jesus Name, Amen.

What do you do with 2 less kids?

Grocery shopping!!  It was a lot quicker than when I have all 4 of them with me!  Oh and no one asked "Can I get this?"!  Now, that in itself was exciting to me!!

I did end up cleaning a little yesterday as well...not that my house is all that clean, but I did get some stuff done!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Well, I just got home from being up at my parent's house. It was a last minute thing. I decided since Kevin had to work so late on Friday that I would just head up to my parent's house and drop the boys off, that way when Kevin got home, he could have an uninterrupted sleep...without the boys distracting him!

So "M" & "N" are gone for the week. Whatever will I do with myself? I'm sure "D" & "A" will keep me busy...but I need to figure out what I want to do this week. There are things that NEED to be done, like deep cleaning and laundry, but how much of that can I do with two 2 year olds running about?

I think I honestly need to use this time away from my older 2 to re-energize myself...Spiritually! I don't have to do school this week since "M" isn't going to be at home. "N" won't be picking on the twins, so I should be able to get some time to myself...mainly during nap time.

Hmmm...I think I need to pray about this tonight and start tomorrow with some reflection on my days (which are quite chaotic at times with 4 boys) and see where the Lord wants to take me so that I may begin changing my attitude, which will be ever so helpful when it comes to dealing with 4 boys!

Those of you who read, if you wouldn't mind, keep me in your prayers this week, so that I may do some "Spring Cleaning" in my heart. I think it's time I need to focus my energies on this!

Friday, July 13, 2007

Good Morning!!

I'm not awake this morning...yet.  Where's my coffee??  I guess I don't have a maid, so I'd better get it myself  *sigh*  If only I had a maid!!  LOL

Kevin has to work late tonight (real late...like till 6 am tomorrow!  Almost 24 hours!).  I'm not looking forward to it at all.

Monday evenings I usually go to Bible study at our church, however, our Group leader just had her knee replaced, so we haven't been meeting as regularly.  We are meeting this Monday though...we are doing a video series that one of the other ladies already had at her home.  It's from the Women Of Faith Conference...3 or 4 videos.  We go this week, then we are off the next week (VBS) and then back on and when we finish, our Group leader says she should be ready to get back and lead again for the Fall.

I can't believe how much I've missed it.  We've had 2 weeks off and it's completely thrown me for a loop.

Next week my sister will be taking my 2 oldest for a week!  She runs the VBS at her church, so every year she keeps my boys for that week.  I'll probably go up there (1 1/2 hours away) in the middle of the week (probably after Tuesday when my AVON order comes in so I can deliver it).

Ugh, what a boring entry huh?

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Thankful Thursday

I've been surfing and reading through some new blogs.  I noticed many of them doing a Thankful Thursday.  I like it, so I'm going to jump onto the bandwagon!



I'm thankful for...
1.  My husband, Kevin.  He is my best friend.  Without him, I wouldn't be the person I am today.  He works so hard to provide for our family and allowing me to be a SAHM.

2.  My boys.  Each of them with their own personality make up a part of who I am as well.  With each pregnancy, I've changed, not just physically.  "M" just celebrated his 10th birthday, he's growing into quite a nice young man.  "N" will be 7 this fall, going into the 1st grade this year.  He's what I like to call my "middle" child.  He is full of energy at home and quiet in public.  "D" & "A" are both 2....they are full of energy and then some!  Having 2 the same age makes things a bit more challenging.  Born at 31 weeks, "D" & "A" had a rough beginning, but just seeing them healthy, happy, and normal makes all that I went through to have them worth it!

3.  Ohio.  I'm so glad we are back in Ohio, close to family.  Although I wouldn't trade living in CO or MN for the life of me.  We grew closer being away from family.  We learned so much about our lives together and our love for the Lord while we were away those 6 years.  It's sad we missed out on so much of my nieces' and nephews' lives, but we are back now and making up for lost time!

4.  Our Church Family.  Without them, I don't know how I would survive!  They have stepped up so many times to help when we needed.  For example, when I found out I was pregnant with our twins, we had just started going to this church.  Of course I had asked for prayers throughout the pregnancy as things began to worry me.  When the boys were born, the Pastor was there...as a matter of fact, he was able to see my boys before my husband did (that's a long story for another time).  The members of the church then provided prayers and a shower, and also meals while the boys were in the NICU.

5.  My family.  Without my sister who allowed Jesus to shine through her, I wouldn't be a Christian.  My mom who "Prays without ceasing" for me and my family.  My dad for his tenderness, something I didn't see growing up.  My nieces and nephews who show their faith, even at a young age!

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Hardest time...

I'm having the hardest time staying on a diet.  I just don't have the will power!  I try, but I fail every time!

I need to lose 40 pounds to be in my "Ideal weight" range, however, just 20-30 pounds would be wonderful to me!

Summer is here...I want to swim and not feel so self-concious about being in my bathing suit.

My 15th High School Reunion is coming up...I really don't want to be overweight for that either.

My boys...I want to keep up with them!

Health...I know with being overweight, it can cause health issues...ones I don't want.

If I wasn't so lazy...I guess this wouldn't be an issue!