Friday, December 5, 2008

Christmas Past

When I was young, every year we had Christmas for my mom's side of the family on Christmas Eve at our house...well, mom and dad's, I just lived there because I was too young to get a job and live on my own ;)

Anyway, I can remember standing in the doorway a day or 2 before Christmas Eve waiting for my Aunt V to arrive (she lived an hour and a half away and would come and stay a few days at my mom and dad's house).  As she arrived, I would greet her at the door and help her bring in her gifts and things.

The mornings she was there, I would get up and make coffee for her and my mom.  I learned how to make coffee way before I even had thought of drinking it (now I'm addicted!).

On Christmas Eve, my mom would scurry around the kitchen moving canisters, the toaster, and anything else that was on the counter out of the way to make room for all the food that was there.  Dad would get the leaf for the table out of the closet and put it into the table, and then get the card table out for the kids to sit at (there were only 4 of, my sister, and 2 cousins).

Soon guests would arrive.  And just as I had waited for my aunt to show up a day or 2 before, I would wait for them as well.  My Uncle B would always have to make at least 4-5 trips to get all the loot into the house.  Aunt J and Uncle T would come, but since they had 2 children, it never took them very long to get into the house.   How convenient that my sister and their oldest daughter were only 2 weeks apart in age, and their son was a year older than me.  Instant playmates!  My Uncle B had 1 daughter, but she lived with her mom in Florida.

While the guests arrived, my dad would be carving the turkey...I always snuck out to the kitchen to grab a piece of turkey...I loved eating the skin!  I was young then, I didn't know how bad eating skin was, I just knew it was GOOD!

My mom would run and get my Grandpa before the guests arrived...he didn't drive, I don't know that I ever seen him drive...ever, but I'm sure as a younger man, he did drive.

We would start by eating supper, then the kids would be shuffled into the bedrooms to get dressed for the Christmas program at the church.  Then out the door!  Usually it was just my Aunt J and My mom and the 4 kids...everyone else stayed at the house.

We would come home knowing that the presents would be opened soon! My Uncle B would never disappoint...he always had gifts for each of us that required batteries!!  We LOVED it!

Gift opening would always go by age, meaning I ALWAYS went 1st!  1 gift at a time, round and round until we were done. Then it would be time for cleaning up and everyone to leave.

Those were great times!  We still have Christmas Eve at my mom and dad's house, but things are a bit different now...My Aunt V now lives in CO, so we don't see her.  We no longer exchange gifts.  My Uncle T, Uncle B, and Grandpa have since passed away.  There are a lot more than just 4 kids...I have 4, my sister has 4, my sister's friend (who is like my sister) has 2, my cousin (girl) has 2, and my other cousin (boy) has now there's 15 kids!  Can you imagine a house full of 15 kids??  Oh, and add spouses and boyfriends to the mix as well.  It can get a bit crazy!

Thank you for coming on this journey of my Christmas Past!

Monday, November 24, 2008

My Dad

He had surgery on his foot.  He has gout bad and when he walked, the bones in his foot were rubbing against each other.  He was apparently missing the cartridge between the bones.

Since his surgery (Nov. 13, 2008), he has been in excruciating pain.  I went to visit him on Saturday (15th) and he was moaning and really out of it still.  The doctor had put him on ercocet.  Which was apparently causing him to hallucinate.  So when my mom called and talked to the doctor on Monday (17th), they changed his medication to Vicodin instead.  That seemed to be a bit better and my mom started going back to work last week.

On Saturday (22nd), my mom went to my niece's birthday party (with all of us as well) and my dad fell at home.  He was alone and couldn't get up.

He has began to hallucinate again on his medications.  Please pray for him.  Pray for healing of his foot, (apparently, his other foot has been bothering him as well) and for clarity of mind.

Thank you!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Servant of God

Are you a servant of God?  Do you serve in church in hopes someone will notice?  What exactly is a True servant?

Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.  Colossians 3:23

A true servant shows selfless love towards others.  Being willing and available to meet the needs of those that need help; to see the needs that need to be met; to do it with enthusiasm and dedication.

So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.  1 Corinthians 15:58

Some observations that breaks my heart.  While I was at church today, I noticed how many empty positions there were.  We were lacking quite a few teachers this morning.  Yes, it's getting close to the Holiday season, so some people are traveling, however, as a servant of God, shouldn't there be someone willing to fill into those places that are in need?  I know God has called each of us into our own roles to help the church thrive, where are those willing to do their part?

I can tell you from experience, I am not called to work in the nursery - toddler room, however, when there is an need and I'm available, I will be there, why?  Because I know that in doing this, I am serving God.

Therefore, whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone—especially to those in the family of faith.  Galatians 6:10

It was hard for me to see some parents missing out on the sermon today because their child's room was closed because there wasn't a teacher.  They could have put their child into another room, but their child wanted to be in the room he was used to.

I would be lieing if I said that hearing "Thank you for stepping up and doing this" or "What would I do without you" makes me feel good, but to be honest, that's not why I'm there.  I do what I do, because it's pleasing to God.

Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant. Galatians 1:10

How do you serve?  Do you step into some roles that you aren't comfortable with because you see a need and fill it temporarily?  Do you do it out of obedience to God or are you looking for some recognition?

Monday, November 3, 2008


This past weekend, I found a journal of mine that had 12 entries in it.  The pages were all messed up and I decided since I had this really cute journal sitting around the house collecting dust, I would transfer all that information into my new one.  (I have a ton of cute journals laying around...I have this thing with buying journals, pens, any office thing really...I just can't help myself!)

Anyway, this journal has visions and dreams that I've seen along with their meanings that (well some still don't have a meaning with them), prophecies that were spoken over me, and words given to me by the Lord.  Just those types of things, recorded all in one place (with dates) so I can go back and reread them.

As I was writing, I was amazed.  The first post was recorded in 1999 and the last in 2000, so it's been "missing" for a few years.  So many things in the prophecy have already come to pass.  It talked about being lead through the shadow of death holding onto the Lord's hand and me not fearing.  As I read that, I see how that has come to pass...I was close to death when I was having my twins (had HELLP Syndrome...a type of pre-eclampsia and my organs were shutting down).  It also talked about my calling and me working with children...not toddlers, but children.  If you've been reading my blog, you know that I worked with our church's VBS and have been working in the Children's Ministry at our church.  I felt like I was called there and this confirms it!

So what is something that has happened to you that confirms what God has been showing you?

Thursday, October 23, 2008


K and I have been going to a Bible Study on Wednesday nights.  The first question that was asked...

How would you define your faith?

The Bible defines faith as:

1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. ~ Hebrews 11:1

I have pondered this question in my head for the past 2 weeks.  I know what I believe, but how would I present my faith to an unbeliever?  I'm not sure how to do that, the only thing I can offer is examples.

  • It's a feeling of overwhelming peace in the midst of turmoil
  • It's knowing beyond a shadow of doubt that I am saved by the Grace of God and will go to heaven when my life on earth is over
  • It's not worrying about the "financial crisis" that is going on in the world because I know I will be taking care of
  • It's believing that I was destined for a purpose
  • It's knowing that the only thing that can fill the hole in your heart is God because you've tried other things and still felt empty
  • It's knowing that 2 different times in my life I should have died, but God has brought me through to see another day
  • It's not worrying about things that I have no control over

Even after reading the above responses, I still feel like I haven't really explained what my faith is.

Kevin described it this way...

If you strip away all worldly things and feel like you have nothing, you have no faith, but if you feel like you still have something (after all worldly things are gone) that's where you will find your faith.

So how would you describe your faith?

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Fun Night

Tonight, I got a call from a friend asking if I would like to meet her at Starbucks for some coffee and conversation.  How can you pass up Coffee and Grown-up conversation without children?

I had such a wonderful time talking with her.  She understands my struggles...and me just speaking out my struggles with her (i.e. quiet time), helps me get a clearer understanding on where I stand.

How does that work?  I didn't say anything new that I hadn't already thought of in my head before...but stating it outloud was like a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders.

16Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much. ~ James 5:16

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Accountability Partner/Mentor

Have you ever had this know it's there, but the picture isn't quite clear?  You know there's something special there, but you just can't quite remember all the details?  You can still feel those "feelings" you had when you first had the dream, but now you can't quite remember how that dream went?

How do you get that dream back?  Do you try and recreate the same atmosphere you had when you first had the dream?  Do you try and think on something little that you remember in hopes that it will trigger the whole dream again?

What if you can't get that dream back?  Then what?  Do you just move on and forget about it?  Or do you try and figure it out?

Here I sit, with those thoughts.  I can't quite figure out what exactly it was about anymore, but the feelings are still there.

What am I talking about?  What God has called me to do.  I know he told me once...I know the general idea of what it is, but here I am waiting on those details.  Did he tell me those and I forgot?  Or has He not yet revealed them to me?

My vision is clouded with all the "stuff" that is around me on a daily basis.  My quiet time hasn't been what is should be.  I know that to grow in faith, I need to dive into the word and spend time with why is it that my quiet time has been the hardest time to come by?  I feel as though I rush through just so I can mark that off he "to do" list.  I know it's not right, but that's what is happening.  And now, I have more questions about what I'm supposed to be doing instead of answers.

I need someone to cheer me on...someone to hold me accountable...someone I'm comfortable enough to share everything with...a mentor!  Someone besides my husband (although, he would probably work, I think I need a "girlfriend").

Where does one begin to find a mentor, or an accountability partner?

I'm of the timid type and have never really had a friend (besides my husband) that I've shared EVERYTHING with...this is difficult for me, and I'm not sure why that is.  It's not like I don't like talking...quite the contrary!  But to be so open to someone, what if I get hurt?  Please pray for me!

Do you have an accountibility partner?  What about a Mentor?  Both?  How did you come to have your accountability partner/mentor?

Ok, I need to appologize, I started this post out in one direction and it ended up in a total different one...sorry about that.  I don't want to edit it because's too late for me to do that, and 2...this is something I needed to get out...all of it!

Sunday, September 28, 2008


I was reading my morning blog feeds, and came across one that made me pause...and seriously contemplate what I have been doing way too often in my life!

Peter from Without Wax had a post entitled:  I'm Tired of this Game.  In it, he talks about comparisons he makes about other people.  I sat there and realized, I too do this ALL the time!  I don't like it, it doesn't make me feel better about myself either.  Usually, I look at them and wish I were that way...I see something I am lacking in my own life.  If I'm not careful, it can lead to jealously...something that is ugly in and of itself!

I am who God intended me to be and I shouldn't be comparing myself to anyone else!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


I was reading my morning blog feeds, and came across one that made me pause...and seriously contimplate what I have been doing way too often in my life!

Peter from Without Wax had a post entitled:  I'm Tired of this Game.  In it, he talks about comparisons he makes about other people.  I sat there and realized, I too do this ALL the time!  I don't like it, it doesn't make me feel better about myself either.  Usually, I look at them and wish I were that way...I see something I am lacking in my own life.  If I'm not careful, it can lead to jealously...something that is ugly in and of itself!

I am who God intended me to be and I shouldn't be comparing myself to anyone else!

Friday, September 12, 2008

My Dad

Could I please ask you to pray for him?  He's in the hospital.  He went in on Wednesday for a MRI on his feet since they have been swollen and so sore he couldn't walk on them.  After they did the MRI, they admitted him into the hospital.

Diagnosis:  He has arthritic feet and the gout is attacking the arthritis causing extreme pain.  I should also mention here that Dad is diabetic and the medication that they usually give gout patients effects kidneys, so they had to watch what to give him.

After talking to my mom today, they will be transporting my dad to another hospital due to his kidneys not working the way they should (getting worse).  They also have to stop the gout medication as well because they contribute that to the Kidneys gettin worse.

My dad is in a lot of pain and has been having all those wonderful side effects of the medication (flu-like symptoms).  Please pray that the doctors can find the proper medication to use that will clear up the gout and not mess with his Kidneys so they can treat his feet (they can't treat his feet until the gout is gone).  I pray that God will HEAL him!

Thank you!

Friday, September 5, 2008


I heard a pastor say...

"If you want to find your calling, start by looking at what you hate..."  He was speaking of how those little things that bug you are thigs you are called to change.  For example, if you are at church and feel the music is off, you are probably called to serve in the music area of your church, likewise, if you are irritated that things don't start on time or you are late for something, you're probably called into some sort of administration.

I've seen this...during the praise and worship, my husband would hear little things in the sound that needed to be changed.  Not everyone else would recognize these things.  He also could tell me exactly what the problem was and how to fix it.  Let me tell you what he does at church now...he is on the Sound Team.

If you are looking for your purpose, your calling, look to the things that seem to irritate you the most, see if that is where God is calling you to be!

Friday, August 29, 2008

My Niece

My niece is 8 years old.  2 years ago, she was diagnosed with Juvinile Diabetes.

It's been a long hard road for their family these past 2 years.  They've had to learn how to count all the carbs that she consumes, adjust the insilin to help her body work properly. I've learned so much in the past 2 years as well.  My father has diabetes, his diabetes is different than my nieces'...this is something that seems the hardest for most people to understand.

They are working towards getting her put onto a pump, this is something that will help her out a lot.  I hope it happens for her soon...It would give her a little more freedom!  Side note:  My dad is working towards this goal as well!

Type I Diabetes (Juvenile Diabetes) - Type 1 Diabetes is a disorder in which the body does not produce insulin (a hormone that   aids in moving sugar from the blood to the cells).  This type of diabetes can be due to a   virus or autoimmune disorder in which the body does not recognize an organ as its own and attacks   it.  In this case the body attacks an organ known as the pancreas where insulin is   made.  This type of diabetes is usually diagnosed before age 40.

Type II Diabetes (Adult onset Diabetes) - Type 2 Diabetes occurs when insulin that the body produces is less efficient at moving sugar out of the bloodstream.  Some sugar is moved out of the blood, just not as effectively compared to a person with normal insulin efficiency.  High blood sugar is a result of this.  Type 2 Diabetes used to be thought of as the adult onset type of diabetes.  However, an alarming rate of children are now being diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes.

This year, my whole family will be walking right along side her on October 4th to help raise money for a cure for diabetes.  Side Note:  If you are interested, in donating let me know, I'll get you the information you need.

I am so proud of her.  I was talking to my sister-in-law (her mom) and she told me how much money she has raised!  At $1000, she will be recognized...I can say she has past that amount!

Way to go "Kg1"!  You are doing GREAT!!

Monday, August 25, 2008


Today was a good day until this evening when we got 4 inches of rain in an hour!

Kevin was on his way out the door to take the dog out when the neighbor was standing on our porch (we live in a duplex).  She told him that their basement was flooded and we might want to check ours.

Yep, there was an inch of water on most of the floor in the basement!  We have spent most of the night with the shopvac cleaning up the floor.  I think we emptied the shopvac out 20+ times!  And the water was coming up through the drain in the basement...YUCK...YUCK...YUCK

I'm exhausted, but we still have a lot of stuff to clean up.  Did I mention that we kept all the empty boxes when we moved here so we could use them again to pack whenever we decided to move again?  Or that we had a ton of books and toys on the floor? HUGE mess!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Worship Night

A couple weeks ago our church hosted a night of worship.  It was filled with Music, short video clips, and a short message from our Pastor.

I was hesitant to go since my husband was staying at home with the boys and I had been running all day...Singing on the Praise & Worship team in the morning, getting a couple last minute camping items after church, lunch, a baby shower, etc.  But I went.  And I was so glad I did!

It has been such a long time since I've felt the presence of God so powerfully like that in a service.  I sang, prayed, wept, and worshiped God.

I can't wait for the next one!!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008


We leave tomorrow to go camping!  Tonight, softball and packing...tomorrow a long drive up to Michigan!

I'm sure we will have lots of fun, I'm looking forward to it, well to the trip, not the packing part.

I'll be back on Sunday!  Don't miss me too much!  :D

Friday, August 8, 2008

True Faith

I just spend part of my morning watching the interview that Larry King did with with the Chappman family.  I was encouraged by their faith and honesty.

We have a family in our own church whose 3 year old daughter was backed over by a city worker.  I've watched this family going through all the emotions and grief that one goes through.  It hasn't been an easy road for the members of our church, let alone the family themselves.  I catch myself at times just watching them during worship, to see their hearts poured out...every ounce they have...praising God.  It touches my heart, you know they are giving everything they have...tears streaming down their face.  It warms my heart.  That's true worship...with the whole heart!   It reminds me of a story in the bible...

Mark 12:41-44 (New International Version)

The Widow's Offering

41Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. 42But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins,worth only a fraction of a penny.

43Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, "I tell you the truth, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. 44They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on."

It's such a true testament of faith.  To move forward knowing that God will sustain them throughout this process.  Leaning on the Lord for strength.

Think about it.  This is something we should be doing each and every day without a tragedy, yet do we?  I know that I don't.  I know I should, but it doesn't mean that I do.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Thankful Thursday

It's Thankful Thursday again!

  • I'm thankful for having such a great summer with my boys.
  • I'm thankful for a wonderful husband who supports me even when I'm running out the door every night to do something for church or go out with friends.
  • I'm thankful for family who will watch my boys at a moment's notice, just so my husband and I can go out for a long weekend.
  • I'm thankful for the friends we hung out with one night during our said weekend.
  • I'm thankful for not gaining weight from said weekend even though I ate more than normal!
  • I'm thankful for family I haven't seen in a long time who visited my folks when we were picking up my boys from said weekend.  It was great to see them again!
  • I'm thankful for the Revelation bible study notes my sister gave me.  She taught on this at her church a few years back and gave me her notes.  It has opened my eyes more.
  • I'm thankful for my sister's notebook...there was more notes in there than just the Revelation bible study that I get to read/type up for myself.
  • I'm thankful for my camera that I got for my birthday this past year.  I love taking photos!!
  • I'm thankful for my nephew who wants me to take his Senior Portraits instead of going somewhere to get them done.
  • I'm thankful for the program I have to work with said photos to make them look better!
  • I'm thankful for my in-laws, even if they do drive me nuts.  They are my family and I'm determined to see the best in them and focus on the good...pray for the bad!
  • I'm thankful for our upcoming camping trip...looking forward to it actually and excited to get to hang out with our friends again for a whole week.

To see more Thankful Thursday posts, visit Iris's blog Sting My Heart

Starbucks doesn't have FREE WiFi??

Oh no! I went to Starbucks tonight to meet with a friend. I went early, you know any way I can get out of the house without the children and spend some quiet time on my own, works for me!

I go to Starbucks, pull out my laptop and try to connect to the local WiFi’s around and none of them would connect, so I asked the lady behind the counter about it and she told me that, unfortunately, Starbucks requires a paid WiFi usage! It’s $3.99 for 2 hours, not bad, but I wanted FREE!

So, here I sit…debating, do I buy the prepaid card ($10) and use it or do I just write my blog entry on word and then copy it to my blog later tonight...

Doing my blog at home, I get distracted, the TV, the cat, the dog, the 4 boys, my husband…the dirt in my house that has been sitting there taking up residence in my carpet. If I do the blog here at Starbucks, I only have people I don’t know around (yes, I’m a people watcher, but I can type and watch at the same time here…something I can’t do at home…weird, I know!).

So I bet you are all dieing to find out what I did right? Well, I typed this up at Starbucks on Word and saved it because it was time for my friend to arrive and I won’t be doing much on the computer once she arrives! Too much to catch up on!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

"Speak Lord, for your servant is listening"

The last few days I have been feeling like God is moving in my life, calling me to something more, freeing me up from something that has been holding me back from the fullness of God.

Last night as I was preparing for Bible Study (we are reading Beth Moore's book, Get Out Of That Pit together...which, by the way, is a great book!), I felt the Lord tugging on my heart.  I knew that I was on the brink of some sort of breakthrough.  I instantly emailed my worship leader mentor friend, and told her what I was feeling, she lead me to this scripture...

1 Samuel 3:9-11 (New International Version)

9 So Eli told Samuel, "Go and lie down, and if he calls you, say, 'Speak, LORD, for your servant is listening.' " So Samuel went and lay down in his place.

10 The LORD came and stood there, calling as at the other times, "Samuel! Samuel!"
Then Samuel said, "Speak, for your servant is listening."

11 And the LORD said to Samuel: "See, I am about to do something in Israel that will make the ears of everyone who hears of it tingle.

For so long I have felt like I have ADD and only when it comes to sitting down to spend quiet time with the Lord.  I just can't quiet myself down to stop and listen to what God has to say for me.  I have been really struggling with finding my quiet time.

The feeling that the "flood gates of Heaven" will open if I just surrender and spend some quality time with God.  How do you do that with a house full of boys and a dog that likes to bark at the cat?  There are so many distractions in my house!

This morning sealed it when I came across a post from Pete (the Pastor of Cross Point Church in Nashville) on Without Wax.  Yep, that confirmed what I have known...I have a self problem, I need to stop focusing on myself and start focusing on God!  Thanks Pete for the confirmation this morning.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Thankful Thursday

  • I'm thankful for 14 wonderful years with my husband.
  • I'm thankful for a wonderful husband who takes care of our family.
  • I'm thankful for 4 wonderful boys who are healthy and happy.
  • I'm thankful for our upcoming weekend  that we will be able to get away without my children.
  • I'm thankful for my friends from church.
  • I'm thankful for my family who are there when I need them.
  • I'm thankful for iced tea...I absolutely LOVE it!
  • I'm thankful for my if I would just get my butt there!
  • I'm thankful that my weight has went down...even if it's just 2 pounds!

14 years

Yesterday, Kevin and I celebrated our 14th anniversary!  We didn't do much, we have plans to go out in about a week with some friends from church (her 30th birthday is Aug 1, so we will celebrate then...without kids!). So, yesterday, I was going to make steak for supper, but when Kevin came home, he told me to just order supper from somewhere and we would eat out.  So we had TGI Friday's for supper.  YUM, but I over ate!

If you want to hear all about my wedding day, I posted about it last year here.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


A quote from Beth Moore's Book, "Get Out of that Pit"

"...inauthentic people are ineffective people....Liberty cannot exist apart from transparency."

Just something to ponder!

Monday, July 21, 2008

Cereal Again?

Why is it that whenever my children are given free rain to eat what they want for lunch or super, they choose cereal?

Today was no different, they all had cereal for breakfast, then turned around and had cereal for a snack (dry of course).  Then when I told them it was lunch time and said they could have what they wanted, they all chose cereal again!

How can hey eat that day in and day out?  I just don't get it!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Thankful Thursday

It's Thursday!  It's been such a long time since I participated in Iris' Thankful Thursday Carnival.  Today, I'm participating!

I'm thankful that my parent's are celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary this weekend.

I'm thankful for how much fun we had with family at Dave & Buster's for "M"'s 11th birthday last weekend.

I'm thankful that I can feel God changing me, breaking the bad habits I have.  It's a process, but I'm so grateful that He is patient with me.

I'm thankful my dad has been making it to work more often.  He has Diabetes and Gout and sometimes he just can't make it to work.

I'm thankful for my friends who have committed to pray for me.  I've been struggling with finding my "quiet time."

I'm thankful for the many babies in our church...we have had a baby boom of sorts!

I'm thankful that I can see the "light at the end of the tunnel" when it comes to our debt.  My wonderful husband has been working so hard at clearing our debt so we can get a house.

I'm thankful for the warm weather and being able to sit outside on our new new to us porch furniture.

I'm thankful for my morning coffee...sometimes I just need my caffeine in the morning to jump start my day...I'm not a morning person!

If you are interested in reading more Thankful Thursdays, go check out Sting My Heart

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


Yesterday as I was getting ready for church, my phone rings.  It was one of the Sunday School teachers calling to let me know that her son was sick and she wasn't going to be able to make it into class.  She wasn't sure if she should call me, since I have been covering for the Children's Ministry Director while she's out on "Maternity Leave" or the Children's Ministry Director.

Since the children she was teaching was half of my class (they closed my class room for the summer and shuffled the children around a bit...freeing me up to help the Children's Minisitry Director) and the other half of the class was children that had moved out of my class not too long ago, I would just go ahead and teach the class.  Most of the children knew me anyway.

So, I go into the class, look around the desk for some sort of curriculum...I couldn't find anything.  Then I remembered that the teacher had been teaching the children something different.  I search for a note (I know she sent them home with the children when she started in that class).  When I found it, it had the things they will be learning on it:

Books of the Bible, Fruit of the Spirit, 10 Commandments, Armor of God, Creation, and Alphabet Bible Memorization.

I had no clue where she was or what was/wasn't taught.  So what was I going to do??  These children ranged in age from Kindergarten (they would be going into the 1st grade in the fall) to 3rd grade (those going into the 3rd grade in the fall...4th graders moved up a class).

Once all the children came in and were seated, I looked at them and told them that I had no idea what their teacher had taught on or how she ran her, they were going to teach me!

First thing I was told I had to do was put all the books of the Old Testament on the board...I'm still not quite sure why I had to put them up there, but they told me I had to, so being the good student, I did what I was told.  I got my Bible out and Eric said, "Don't you know that already?"  I can honestly say, NO, I don't know the books of the Bible...I used to years ago know what order they were in, now I just sort of guess!

Next thing I had to do was turn on the music...we got to listen to a song!  It was the books of the bible.  Ok, I can see where this is going, we are learning the Books of the Old Testament.

One child told me that it was now time for each child to recite the books of the OT and get their butterfly moved to where they stop at on this tree.

Did I mention this teacher is very creative?  She made these 2 trees out of paper, a scene really where all the leaves on the one tree are the OT books and the leave on the other tree are the NT books!  Each child had a butterfly with their name on it attached to a paperclip that would get moved across the tree.

I just have to say that I was more than impressed at how well each child did!  I got to move almost every child's butterfly to a new position and 1 child finished all the books in the OT and NT!  Did I mention the ages of these children?  They are learning!!

After getting through that, I started looking around the room and asked what they learned last week.  Most of the children weren't there last week, but 1 child told me the Armor of God.  So over to the poster I went and I started asking question on what each part of the Armor of God was and what it stood for!  These children are S-M-A-R-T!!

After that, we moved onto the Fruit of the Spirit.  They explained to me what each of the 9 Fruits of the Spirit were/meant.  I began on the 10 Commandments...which 1 child informed me that they didn't do that yet, but I know from my previous 'bouts of teaching that they should have heard this before, so I continued.  We got through most of them, then the parent's started arriving to pick up their children!

I have never been so impressed by a group of children as I was Sunday with this class.  I wrote a note to Mrs. Darlene so that she knew what we did.

After shuffling the children around to 2nd service class and off with their parents, I talked a bit to the director.  She had asked me to pray about what God really wants me doing in Children's Ministry.  I flat out told her that I know my gifting is not in teaching, but I will teach if that's where I'm needed there.  She said she sees me more in an administrative position instead of teaching, but in moving me, that would require more teachers.

So, now I need to focus and lay it all out at God's feet.  Find out what it is that I am supposed to be doing.  I know He will show me the way and it will all work out the way it was intended...I just need to listen!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Get Out Of That Pit!

We started a new Bible Study in our Monday night Bible Study.  We are doing Beth Moore's Get Out Of That Pit.    We usually have a group on Monday nights of 6-9 women...last night we had 20!

I'm excited to be getting into another Beth Moore study...the last one we did (Jesus, The One and Only) , I learned a lot!

Friday, June 13, 2008


Last night was our VBS Finale'!  It went GREAT!  We had those big blow up jumpy things (yeah...I don't know what they are called), a tent for dinner, and a cotton candy machine!

I didn't get a chance to eat...I had so much stuff I had to much running from inside and out!  When I got inside, they were having trouble with the cotton candy machine and since I was the only sucker one to learn how to run it, I had to go over and actually work the machine!  I had cotton candy EVERYWHERE!  I went home singing...I'm hot, sticky, sweet, from my head to my feet

Anyway, the children LOVED everything, I only heard good comments from parents and kids were asking where they could go for the next Power Lab!!

My staff...what can I say about a wonderful group of men and women who pour their whole heart and soul into doing God's work.  They were great, I couldn't have run the week without them!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

VBS...Day 4

88 Children in 1 week went through our VBS.  Let me just say, if your church is doing Group's Power Lab, it will be a success!  The children were absolutely loving it!  I have heard a number of children talking about what other church in the area was doing Power Lab and which church they were going to next!

Last night was the Salvation message.  I haven't heard if any child was saved, however, I know the seed was planted.  All the children knew the answers to the questions that our "characters" were asking them!  They are getting it!!

I have been truly blessed by the volunteers and helpers!  I couldn't have done this without their help!  Not to mention the Children's Ministry Director...even if she couldn't make it to Power Lab for more than 30 minutes a couple nights, it was great to have her support over the phone and throughout the process of getting things together!

Tonight is our last's Family night, so my job is very simple.  We will have the normal opening and then have our "closer" come up and do an experiment (or 2) and then send the children outside for food and games.  Our church had lined up those big blow-up bouncy things!  The kids are going to love it!!

VBS...Day 3

15 more children!!  We had 83 children Tuesday night!  Not to mention we had quite a few volunteers missing because Tuesday is church softball night and swim meet night!  Talk about crazy!!

Things are still going smoothly...I'm so impressed at how my volunteers are not only excited, but getting into character!  It's really great to see!  I have only heard wonderful things from the children and from their parents.

Even though I'm thoroughly exhausted, I'm having a great time...don't tell the Children's Ministry director, or I might have to do this again!  LOL

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

VBS...Day 2

Last night was so much easier than the 1st night.  Things went smoothly...registration didn't take much time, children knew what to expect, their anticipation was up.  I didn't need to run around as often as I did the 1st night.

We had 68 children last night...I was glad to see it grow!

I feel like there was a life changing moment that happened last night at the registration table.

I just happened to walk up to the registration table to give them more pens.  A family with 2 young boys came up to the table to register.  Let me remind you that we are running an Elementary only VBS.  These 2 young boys were 3 and 5.  As they turned away from the table to go back to their car, I had one of the registration people turn to me and ask if it was possible to bring in 2 preschoolers.  I said Absolutely!  We have a few crew leaders without a crew at the moment.  The family was called back to the table, I looked at the mom (who was visibly upset) and said, "We'll make room for them".  She thanked me over and over.  She had told me that her boys were looking forward to this VBS for some time!

After they got the boys settled into the crews we chose for them, I went and pulled the registration papers to see if they had been to our church before.  No church was listed on their papers.

I'm so glad we didn't turn them away...who knows what type of seed had been planted into that family and how the adjustment for their children will affect them.

I talked to our pastor that night and informed him that I went ahead and put the 2 preschoolers in the VBS.  He told me..."You saw a need and you filled it."  I just explained to him that I put myself into the mother's shoes...I would have been heartbroken and bitter had my children been turned away from VBS!!

VBS...Day 1

Ok, so I'm a day late, but wanted to get this down.

Sunday was such a long day!  I was at the church by 8:15 am to help the Children's Ministry Director make sure all the teachers were in place.  When I get to church, I usually park far away from the door to allow others to park close, not this week.  I parked right in front of the door...I had lots of items to unload from my car.

After I make sure everyone is in their class, I make my way to the sanctuary for 1st service.  I'm tired already, but know that I have a long day ahead of me.  Since my wonderful husband was running the sound board today, I had to find a place to sit by myself, so I see a wonderful man who had at one time been a minister and has this gifting of knowing what to say when you need to hear it...and seeing past your front.  Little did I know at the point I sat next to him that he was giving the message.  He looked at me and asked how I was doing (which was a familiar question that day).  I didn't hesitate and looked straight at him and said "I'm scared to death"...when I realized that had come from my mouth, I was shocked!  I was telling everyone who asked me that day that I was fine.  He looked at me and said it would work out fine, and to catch him between services so we could chat.

Wouldn't you know it, his sermon was on David and Gollith and how David faced his giant and how David was someone else's Hero.  He reminded everyone that we are someone else's Hero, you may not know who, but you are.  That hit me.  Something I needed that day at that moment in time.

I did catch him after service and told him that I was going to be ok...and VBS as going to be fine!

After making sure all the teachers were in 2nd service, I sat in the cafe and talked to a few people who needed me to answer questions for VBS.  I felt like I was the interviewer who was giving lots of interviews for a position.

After church, I had to deal with a HUGE set issue.  I hate confrontation, my stomach was churning, I had a huge headache.  I talked to the decorating crew, I talked to the VBS Worship team.  A decision was made...people were upset.

I then took my children to the grocery store (my husband rode his motorcycle to church, so he followed).  We got our groceries and came home so I could get some other things done for VBS.  Grab lunch and head back to church.

At around 2:30 pm, I showed back up at church to finish getting things set up and ready to go.  Can I say, I was in the ZONE!  I was belting out orders and giving directions to people like it was second nature.  I know it was God working through me because I've never considered myself a leader...I'm a follower!

VBS started and my main focus was getting the registration set up properly so we didn't have children just entering the sanctuary without registering.

I missed the opening, I was bummed about that, but I know she'll do the same thing on Thursday night (Family night).  I ran around the sanctuary talking to the crew leaders who didn't have a crew and instructed them to team up with a bigger crew to help them out.

Things ran smoothly Sunday night...we had 60 children (Elementary only)...with only a couple bumps in the road, but the only ones who noticed the bumps were the ones I had been working with.

We left the church a little after 9:30 pm.  I was exhausted.  I got home and went to bed right away!

Friday, June 6, 2008


I am up to my eyeballs in VBS stuff!  I'm swamped with all the little tasks and trying to pick up those dropped balls get last minute things all cleared up.

I'm so happy to say, I'm not really stressed...I may change my mind when all the children show up on Sunday, but right now I'm not.

I am co-directing this year (my 1st time doing that) and the person I co-direct with just had a baby 2 weeks ago, so I'm not sure how much she will be doing.

I keep telling myself it's only 1 week of my life how much this will mean to all those children.  I know I was chosen for "such a time as this."  Everything will fall into place, I have no doubt about that!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

He was there...

Heather over at Desperately Seeking Sanity is hosting a He Meets us Where We Are Carnival & Contest.   I was so touched reading her story and all the others who have signed the Mr. Linky on her site.  So I thought I'd join in on the fun!

God has met me so many times in my life.  I have been trying to figure out which story to share with you, so here's your warning...this may be LONG!

I was raised in a Lutheran church.  My mother was a Sunday School teacher and my dad (although he didn't go), made sure we went to church every Sunday (unless, of course we were sick).  I was a "good girl" growing up.  I wasn't really part of the popular crowd, but I was friends with everyone and included in all groups.  God was there.  I learned a lot in church.

When I was 15ish (sad, I can't remember), a friend asked me to go to a Chrysalis weekend.  I thought it would be a lot of fun, so I agreed!  I don't remember a lot about that weekend, but I do remember all those wonderful letters from friends, family, and people I didn't know.  People all stating how God loved me (something I knew) and that they did too...that struck me as odd.  How can people who don't even know me, love me...but I accepted it and moved on.  God was showing me his love.

During one of the nights there, I remember them having an alter call.  Being a Lutheran, I had no clue what that was all about, but something compelled me to go forward.  I cried...a lot!  I prayed with my table leader...I knew I was changed, somehow, but not exactly sure what had just happened.   God Showed up, and started working on my life.

After that weekend, I went on about my life...but I did something a bit different.  I actually started reading some of my bible.  That was short lived though.  Having no one to hold me accountable, I went back to not reading and just living life the way I had always lived.

I was your typical 16 year old who knew EVERYTHING.  I was grounded often for some reason or another.  I was asked to be my nephew's Godmother...I was so excited! My sister's niece is also his Godmother and we are the same age, so we hung out all day.  That afternoon, the church my sister went to (she left the Lutheran church to go to a non-denominational church after she got married), held a baby shower for her.

When we got home, a friend of mine asked me to go out driving with her.  I had my license, she had her permit, so I would be her licensed driver.  We went cruising in the town we lived in, however, being as it's only a mile square, we ventured out to neighboring cities.  Since I was grounded and it was a school night, I thought that I should be home around 9 pm.  Although, if I was obeying my parents in the first place, I wouldn't have left the house.  I left her house in my cute little sports car little red Chevette and headed back into town.

As I crossed the tracks and started slowing down to meet the speed limit (and yes, I was that type of driver...obeying the speed limits most of the time) at 35.  I see a car coming toward me and crossing over the middle line.  I slow down even more and get close to the cars parked on the side of the road.

In a split second, my car was spinning and the realization that my car was hit.  I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do, I tried getting my driver's door open so I could get out and look at the damage, but the door was jammed.  I looked at my passenger seat and was shocked to see the engine.  It took the EMTs quite some time to get me out of the car.  This was even after yelling at my dad who was trying to help.  God was there...most of the impact was in the passenger side of my car, if that guy would have hit me on the driver side, I wouldn't have been here to tell you about it.

Once I was at the hospital, they had discovered that my right femur bone was broke and the bone was laying on the main artery in my leg.  They had to get traction in my leg and put a rod in the next morning.  God was there...that bone could have punctured my vein and caused me to bleed to death.  You know God was there when the hospital I was brought to had just hired an Orthopedic Specialist and he was in his 1st week there.  I was one of his 1st surgeries at that hospital!  Had he not been there, I would have been transferred to another hospital.

Due to the extent of my injuries, I was told I probably wouldn't be able to have any children.  So, when I started dating my husband, I told him that I may not be able to have children.  He said "that's fine, we'll just adopt."  God was there...showing me that things were going to be alright.

While we were engaged, Kevin started going through the Lutheran classes and my dad joined him.  God was there, using Kevin to bring Dad to him.  Shortly after we were married, we started attending the church my sister attended.  We liked it so well, we decided to become members of this non-denominational church.  And if you thought God was there in my life before, let me tell you, he was about to alter my life forever!

Kevin and I were born again on the same day at our new church, and a few weeks later my parents started attending there too!  The time came to be baptized and I am so blessed to say that I got baptized on the same day as my husband, my mom, AND my dad!!  God showed up that day in a HUGE way!  It changed not only my life forever, but the lives of many in my family too!

A year went by and Kevin and I had talked more and more about wanting children.  I prayed and prayed for a child.  We prayed together for a child.

I was at our Praise and Worship practice and the Guest Hispanic Minister we had at the service was there.  However, his interpretor wasn't.  So in his very broken English, he began to pray over each of the members of our Worship team.  When he got to me, he asked about a baby.  I looked at him and said, "Yes, I want to have a baby"...he prayed, looked at me and said "It's not your fault"...he prayed, looked at me and said "boy"...he prayed and looked at me and laughed saying "boy".  God was there...he healed me that day!

A few months later, I was pregnant with my 1st child!  I knew from the beginning it was a boy, no doubt in my mind!  God showed up and answered my prayer!

3 years later, I got pregnant with my 2nd boy!  God showed up there as well.  We lived in another state and my mother was able to come out at the right moment to be there with me before I had him, during my labor, and after delivery.  Then got to see him 2 weeks later when we moved to yet another state.

Those moves across the country (from OH to CO and from CO to MN) God used those times for Kevin and I to become closer to each other.  We didn't have family to rely on, just God and each other.  Our marriage is solid, would it be if we hadn't moved?  I don't know, I would hope, but it's hard telling.  We grew so much living in CO and MN for those 6 years!

God answered my prayers when Kevin was asked if he wanted to be transferred to OH!  Oh how I had longed to be back in OH with my family, how I had prayed for it.  Shortly after we moved back (we are talking within a month here) I got pregnant again.  Something unexpected, because we thought we were done after having "M" & "N".  God had other plans for us.  The pregnancy caught us off guard, but we were happy.  We knew it wasn't going to be easy since we sold all of our baby items before moving back to OH (Praise God that "N" was still in the toddler bed, which was converted from the crib).  I specifically remember calling my sister telling her and crying because I wasn't sure how we were going to do this and start all over!  We just moved into a 3 bedroom duplex, how are we going to add another baby.  She calmed me down and said not to worry.  God will take care of you.

Fast forward 4 pregnancy was going well, I hadn't gained any weight (apparently since I was overweight before, the doctor's weren't concerned).  The only thing that was causing concern was I was getting bigger (or yet the baby was getting bigger) and I was measuring 4 weeks ahead of where I should be.  So I went in at 18 weeks to get an ultrasound to see if my dates were off.  I took my mom since she had never seen an ultrasound on a baby, and since I was going to be having her last grandchild.  We were shocked when they said twin boys!!  My doctor never once hinted at a multiple!

I would love to say I praised God at this point and it was such a wonderful day...but no!  I freaked out...cried...had a bit of an anxiety attack!  How could I have twins...we weren't even expecting to have 1 child and now I have to have 2!

After about a day or so to process this fact, we were excited.  I was still scared, but excited, nonetheless.  The next couple months I did start gaining weight (funny how I didn't gain an ounce until I knew it was twins) and things started getting a bit rocky.  My blood pressure started rising, I had Braxton Hicks contractions daily, it hurt to walk, I started getting sick some mornings...all normal pregnancy symptoms multiplied.

At 31 weeks, I went in and they couldn't get my blood pressure to go down, so they sent me to a hospital for observation.  Once there, I was informed that I had HELLP Syndrome and my liver and other organs were starting to shut down.  The only cure...Deliver the babies!  God was the midst of this.  He knew Kevin wouldn't make it through a c-section...Kevin had the flu and couldn't come back to the hospital until he was better.  My mom was able to take off work and be with me through the c-section.  God was there because my boys were early and so much could have been wrong with them...immature lungs, learning disabilities, even death, but they are 2 healthy happy boys.  God was with me throughout...God took care of all the little things too.  Our boys were cared for in the NICU for 4 weeks by wonderful caring nurses.  Our boys came home to a houseful of gifts, clothes, beds, etc. from people who cared.  Their mommy came home...God saved me from death yet again!

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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Rest for my weary soul...

The alarm never sounded.  It was just a watch, but I couldn't get past the fear!  I tried to sleep but was awakened numerous times with an overwhelming sence of fear.  The same fear I once that I had thought I had overcome.  Apparently that fear still lingers.

It's an irrational palms get stomach heart races...I'm awakened from a deep sleep.

It all started with the News breaking in.  Thunderstorm warnings popping up in the next state over.  I watched intently as they showed the big green blob with yellows and reds moving across the states.  I went back to doing my business as normal.

A few minutes later, they break in again with Tornado heart races a little with the news.  They are still a state away, so I go about my business...keeping an eye on the news.

The news was on right before I went to bed.  They were talking about those severe thunderstorms that had the capabilities of producing tornado's.  I felt like my heart was going to pound right out of my chest.  I wake my husband up to tell him I'm going to bed.

We head upstairs and I can feel that fear welling up deep down inside.  I couldn't shake it.  I turned the tv on and laid down for the night.  They were back to regular programming, but I couldn't sleep.  I was exhausted, but the fear kept me awake.

I would doze, then be jolted out of my sleep...only to see the regular programming running on the tv.  I decided to turn off the tv and try to sleep without it on.  That didn't work...I tossed and turned.  Then came the loud BOOM of the thunder.  I knew the storm had made it to our town.  I flipped on the radio.  I was sick to my stomach, scared out of my wits, praying my family would be safe.

Since I've been through this so many times when we lived in MN.  (You see, my fear of tornado's started when we lived in Minnesota.   It could be because they sounded those blasted tornado alarms for a simple thunderstorm, so you never knew if it was just a thunderstorm or if it had the capabilities of producing a tornado.)  I began repeating my verse that always seems to get me out of this fear

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.  2 Timothy 1:7

And as usual, my fears started to calm down and I was able to rest.

So today, all I wanted to do was sleep, but there was so many things planned today, I haven't had the time.  And now if I were to lay down (fully knowing I would fall asleep), I would be wide awake come bedtime.

Sunday, May 18, 2008


Unfortunately, most people would like to just get through the grief as quickly as possible.  Grief is a that takes time.  How much?  Well, that depends on the person going through the grief.  Some people process it quicker than others.  Some get stuck on one step of the grief process.

What is grief?  Wikipedia defines it as:

Grief is a multi-faceted response to loss. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, it also has physical, cognitive, behavioral, social, and philosophical dimensions. Common to human experience is the death of a loved one, whether it be a friend, family, or other close companion. While the terms are often used interchangeably, bereavement often refers to the state of loss, and grief to the reaction to loss.

How does one process grief?  Commonly there are 5 stages of grief.

Denial - "this can't be happening to me"...Not accepting or even acknowledging the loss.

Anger - "why me?"...Anger at the deceased, blaming them for leaving.

Bargaining - Attempting to make deals with God to stop or change the loss. Begging, wishing, praying for them to come back.

Depression - Overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, frustration, bitterness, self pity, mourning loss of person as well as the hopes, dreams and plans for the future. Feeling lack of control, feeling numb.

Acceptance - there is a difference between resignation and acceptance. You have to accept the loss, not just try to bear it quietly. Realization that the person is gone that it is not their fault, they didn't leave you on purpose. Stay with fond memories of person.

I'm seeing this happen in our church from the loss of a young child, to the loss of close family members.  I'm also seeing these steps processed in our family.  My dad internalizes his emotions and we are seeing that through the numbers when he checks his blood (he has diabetes).

Where am I?  Well, I think I'm on the acceptance phase.

Beloved Grandmother

My grandmother went home to be with the Lord on Thursday evening at 10:15 (May 15, 2008).

She had been in and out of the hospital for the past 2 years. 

About a month ago, she started taking a turn for the worst.  They called in hospice to care for her in her home and keep her comfortable.

She has 1 Daughter, 3 Sons, 1 Step Daughter, and 1 Step Son.  She has 4 Granddaughters, 4 Grandsons, 4 Step Grandsons, and 3 Step Granddaughters.  She has 12 Great Grandsons, 7 Great Granddaughters, and many step Grandsons/daughters (I'm unclear of the number and some of those have had children of their own as well).

She lived a few blocks from my parent's house and we visited with her often when I was younger.  As I got older, I seen her frequently until I got married and moved away.  Then I would only see her a couple times a year.

When we lived in Colorado, we had the wonderful privilege of her coming out for a visit.  She came with my mom and dad for a week!  What a great time!  Although she was on oxygen, we were still able to make a trip up into the mountains, and to the Butterfly Pavilion.  She talked about that for years.  When she was there, we only had "M".  He sat and played Dominoes with her for hours!  He loved it (although he probably doesn't remember it since he was only 2).

Every year we had a few reunions for that side of the family.  We always had fun.  2 years ago, "M" sat and played a marble game that every Grandchild played with her.  

"M" still talks about that to this day.

My Grandmother did taxes for a living, so many people in this small community knew who she was.  She will definitely be missed.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Happy Mother's Day

Mother's day is tomorrow.  I pray that each of you mother's out there have a wonderful day with your families.

Mother's Day Poem
Author Unknown

"Happy Mother's Day" means more
Than have a happy day.
Within those words lie lots of things
We never get to say.

It means I love you first of all,
Then thanks for all you do.
It means you mean a lot to me,
And that I honor you.

But most of all, I guess it means
That I am thinking of
Your happiness on this, your day,
With pleasure and with love.

Her children rise up and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praises her Proverbs 31:28 NKJ

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Mother's Like Deadliest Catch?

Kevin loves likes Deadliest Catch on the Discovery Channel.  The last time it was on, I saw an advertisement for a Deadliest Catch Mother's Day Marathon.  So, do Mother's like the Deadliest Catch or do they watch it because their husband's watch it?

For me, I watch it only because that's what Kevin is's not something I would choose if I had control of the remote.  It just struck me as odd that they would hold a marathon of something that seems (to me) to be for men on Mother's day.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Bible Study

Do you attend one?  What are you studying?  If you attend one, would you encourage others to attend?  Why?

We are having a Ministry Fair on Sunday which also includes our Small Groups in our Church.  Our Monday Night Bible Study is having a "booth"...I (along with everyone else in the group) was asked to give a statement as to why we attended that group.  Our leader is making a poster board for it.

Here is what I sent in...

Why do you attend Monday Night Ladies’ Bible Study?

For me, Monday is my “Girls Night Out”.  Coffee…Talk…and a Bible Study all wrapped up in one!  I get to meet other women in our church and really get to know them.  How many times I have felt all alone, I go to Bible Study, share with the ladies there what is on my heart and realize I am NOT alone!  It has been such a blessing to me to get to know this group of women.  I can call them my friends!  I love this group!!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008


My grandmother isn't doing so well.  She's been in and out of the hospital for the past few years.  The last year has been the worst.  When she leaves the hospital, she goes into the nursing home.

Today, she got home from the hospital.  They brought Hospice in to care for her in her last days.

Please pray for our family.  I'm worried...there are a lot of family members in my dad's family who are not Christians...some who say they are Christians, but aren't really walking the walk.  There have been battles over things like the house as my grandmother would go in/out of the nursing home.  I'm worried this is going to make our family fall apart.

Friday, February 1, 2008


I'm starting to feel a bit overwhelmed with VBS!  I think I'm thinking too much...trying to figure out too much detail right now.  I'll be having another meeting here in the next week or so.  Hopefully, things aren't so confusing to me by then!

Thursday, January 24, 2008


Apparently, I'm not anywhere ready for VBS!

I had a dream last night that it was time for VBS, I had all these kids and workers and no organization at all!  I hadn't assigned any Crew Leaders any of the children yet and no one was listening to anything I said!

I get weird dreams like's an anxiety type of thing.  I don't care for them!  I guess it just tells me that I need to be more prepared than what I am now...I have until June though!!

Please pray for me as I go through the Director's Manuel and figure out all the ins and outs of this VBS!  Thanks!

Sunday, January 13, 2008

VBS Begins!!

Last Tuesday, I had a meeting with last year's VBS director (aka Children's Ministry Director).  She had gotten the VBS kit in the mail and wanted to go through it with me!

She handed me the Director's Manual!  Wow, it's chock-full of information!  I've been reading it for the past couple of days!

I'm a bit nervous and overwhelmed, but have the knowledge that I'm where I need to be.  I know since this is my first time, I may stumble, but with God's help, I'll get back up, dust myself off and move on...learning as I go!

What I'm most nervous about is feeling like I'm on my own...I know I'm not, but there's that fear there.  Our CMD is pregnant and due a week before VBS!

How this all came about!
Last year, I volunteered for VBS (last minute of course) right before our church left for it's Missionary Trip (CMD was a part of that trip).  I ended up being a Crew Leader (which is an adult (or teen) who is in charge of about 5 children and getting them from place to place and helping them in their small group discussions).  I had a great time!

Then the week or so after VBS, there was a tugging on my heart.  I felt God telling me I was to do more.  So, after much prayer, I felt I should volunteer in the Children's Ministry in some form.  Then an email came around asking if anyone was interested in Directing VBS next year (2008).  I prayed about it and felt that God calling me in that direction.  I set up a meeting with our CMD to talk about the openings she had available and what would be a good "fit" for me.  I came away shortly after that meeting with the knowledge that I would definitely be teaching and possibly running VBS next year!  After more prayer and consideration, I stepped up to be 2008 Elementary VBS Director.

After knowing for about 2 months, we find out our CMD is pregnant!  How exciting right, yeah, due a week before VBS!  Talk about God's timing!!  He knew she would be needing someone to step up, and I was there!!

Anyway, that's how we got to this point.

I'm going to try to blog more about the happenings not only going on with VBS but other aspects of my life!  Here's hoping I'll be on here more!!