Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Accountability Partner/Mentor

Have you ever had this dream...you know it's there, but the picture isn't quite clear?  You know there's something special there, but you just can't quite remember all the details?  You can still feel those "feelings" you had when you first had the dream, but now you can't quite remember how that dream went?

How do you get that dream back?  Do you try and recreate the same atmosphere you had when you first had the dream?  Do you try and think on something little that you remember in hopes that it will trigger the whole dream again?

What if you can't get that dream back?  Then what?  Do you just move on and forget about it?  Or do you try and figure it out?

Here I sit, with those thoughts.  I can't quite figure out what exactly it was about anymore, but the feelings are still there.

What am I talking about?  What God has called me to do.  I know he told me once...I know the general idea of what it is, but here I am waiting on those details.  Did he tell me those and I forgot?  Or has He not yet revealed them to me?

My vision is clouded with all the "stuff" that is around me on a daily basis.  My quiet time hasn't been what is should be.  I know that to grow in faith, I need to dive into the word and spend time with Him...so why is it that my quiet time has been the hardest time to come by?  I feel as though I rush through just so I can mark that off he "to do" list.  I know it's not right, but that's what is happening.  And now, I have more questions about what I'm supposed to be doing instead of answers.

I need someone to cheer me on...someone to hold me accountable...someone I'm comfortable enough to share everything with...a mentor!  Someone besides my husband (although, he would probably work, I think I need a "girlfriend").

Where does one begin to find a mentor, or an accountability partner?

I'm of the timid type and have never really had a friend (besides my husband) that I've shared EVERYTHING with...this is difficult for me, and I'm not sure why that is.  It's not like I don't like talking...quite the contrary!  But to be so open to someone, what if I get hurt?  Please pray for me!

Do you have an accountibility partner?  What about a Mentor?  Both?  How did you come to have your accountability partner/mentor?

Ok, I need to appologize, I started this post out in one direction and it ended up in a total different one...sorry about that.  I don't want to edit it because 1...it's too late for me to do that, and 2...this is something I needed to get out...all of it!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Worship

I was reading my morning blog feeds, and came across one that made me pause...and seriously contemplate what I have been doing way too often in my life!

Peter from Without Wax had a post entitled:  I'm Tired of this Game.  In it, he talks about comparisons he makes about other people.  I sat there and realized, I too do this ALL the time!  I don't like it, it doesn't make me feel better about myself either.  Usually, I look at them and wish I were that way...I see something I am lacking in my own life.  If I'm not careful, it can lead to jealously...something that is ugly in and of itself!

I am who God intended me to be and I shouldn't be comparing myself to anyone else!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Comparisons

I was reading my morning blog feeds, and came across one that made me pause...and seriously contimplate what I have been doing way too often in my life!

Peter from Without Wax had a post entitled:  I'm Tired of this Game.  In it, he talks about comparisons he makes about other people.  I sat there and realized, I too do this ALL the time!  I don't like it, it doesn't make me feel better about myself either.  Usually, I look at them and wish I were that way...I see something I am lacking in my own life.  If I'm not careful, it can lead to jealously...something that is ugly in and of itself!

I am who God intended me to be and I shouldn't be comparing myself to anyone else!

Friday, September 12, 2008

My Dad

Could I please ask you to pray for him?  He's in the hospital.  He went in on Wednesday for a MRI on his feet since they have been swollen and so sore he couldn't walk on them.  After they did the MRI, they admitted him into the hospital.

Diagnosis:  He has arthritic feet and the gout is attacking the arthritis causing extreme pain.  I should also mention here that Dad is diabetic and the medication that they usually give gout patients effects kidneys, so they had to watch what to give him.

After talking to my mom today, they will be transporting my dad to another hospital due to his kidneys not working the way they should (getting worse).  They also have to stop the gout medication as well because they contribute that to the Kidneys gettin worse.

My dad is in a lot of pain and has been having all those wonderful side effects of the medication (flu-like symptoms).  Please pray that the doctors can find the proper medication to use that will clear up the gout and not mess with his Kidneys so they can treat his feet (they can't treat his feet until the gout is gone).  I pray that God will HEAL him!

Thank you!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Calling

I heard a pastor say...

"If you want to find your calling, start by looking at what you hate..."  He was speaking of how those little things that bug you are thigs you are called to change.  For example, if you are at church and feel the music is off, you are probably called to serve in the music area of your church, likewise, if you are irritated that things don't start on time or you are late for something, you're probably called into some sort of administration.

I've seen this...during the praise and worship, my husband would hear little things in the sound that needed to be changed.  Not everyone else would recognize these things.  He also could tell me exactly what the problem was and how to fix it.  Let me tell you what he does at church now...he is on the Sound Team.

If you are looking for your purpose, your calling, look to the things that seem to irritate you the most, see if that is where God is calling you to be!