Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Change is inevitable

My life is in no where what I thought it would be.  As a young girl, I remember playing "school" with my stuffed animals and dolls because I wanted to become a teacher.  As I grew older, I wanted to be an accountant (that was until I attempted accounting in college...decided that I couldn't deal with all those numbers!!).  A slight change in my classes and I got my degree in computers.  I enjoy working on computers! :)

One thing that I had always wanted to be as a young child was a mother.  I had all my dolls...most of which were girls...and played with them all the time.  I even remember one year my parents buying me a doll that was the size of a 6 month old baby (even wore 6 month old baby clothes).  I took that doll everywhere...we even went garage saleing for clothes for this doll!  I put it into the bath (not a good idea to do with a cloth doll) and dried it off with the hair dryer (again...not such a good idea with a cloth doll), which resulted in a hole in the belly of my baby...just a slight burn!  What a great mom!  LOL  Nothing that a onsie put onto my baby (permanently) wouldn't fix...didn't want to lose all that stuffing!  I played with that doll a lot!!  (well, until her head popped off...then I had to throw her away)

So here I am today...I'm not a teacher or an accountant.  And that degree in computers?  I've never had a job that I could use that degree in...and since computers have changed so much since I graduated from college, my degree isn't worth much!!  I am a mother...but of boys! :)  And I don't work...well, outside of my house for money.

Not quite what I had thought my life would be, but that's ok, God knows what he's doing.  I couldn't imagine what my life would even look like if it were my decision on what it would be.

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. 13 If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
Jeremiah 29:11-13

I'm forever changed...in more ways than one.  I'm ok with that!

Monday, November 8, 2010